hey guys this is as a True story based on my high school experience. Enjoy
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This whole summer has been plain shitty.Why, cause I hate talking to new people it's bullshit pure BULLSHIT why make friends if there secretly hating on you why make friends so they can back stab you when you trust them with your life why make an effort to make a friend if there all going to leave you behind like some shit they regret talking to. Well that's what I think.This whole summer not one time did we go to the movie with my friends like we said we would. My parents been dragging me around with them cause I 'need' a social life. Uh no I don't. First of all I have social anxiety so every single time my parents expect company and I hear that door bell ring I sprint to my room like freaking speedy gonzalez and I Don't plan on exiting my room till I hear there goodbyes and the door slam shut. Then I walk out of my room.
So 2 more weeks till school starts. Well last friday was embarrassing and I cryed the whole night about it my mom invited a friend of hers to a party sadly my mom friend brought there son Carlos and I have wait HAD a crush on him so when I walking into the party he laid his eyes on me so did some other cute guys around his table. Sadly I had to sit in the table between my crush and the cute guys. So like any teenager would do in an awkward situation I plugged in both my earphone put sleeping with sirens full blast and avoided eye contact. I was going good until the party games started and my dad made me do all of them so did my crush so I would sneeks some peeks at him and he would catch me every single time then smiled,at me I would always blush. Later that day his and my parents went to the dance floor to 'Rock out' leaving me alone with him. So I started doing small talk with him and it went pretty well I even got him to smile so i guess its a win win. When the part was over I decided on confronting him about my feelings. I got him alone by a tree and everything seemed perfect even the god damn moon was shining perfectly on him. I started on walking up to him when he turned around I was hoping for a smile to show but It didn't in return I get a 'Why are you stalking me look' on his face and I mentally stabbed my self. And I still went on telling my feeling for him when a girl so happens to cling on his arm. I look at him for some sort of hint. But all he does is kisses her in front of me at that time my life objective was to make it to the car looking calm and not let anyone see me cry. I walked up to my dad put my best fake smile on and asked for the car keys Thank my dad didn't even think twice about giving me the car keys and I ran out,unlocked the car got in plugged my earphones in put my music on blast and just broke down. When my parents came to the car I was just silently crying.I have never felt so horrible till that day I hated him for that I mentally started saying bad words to the guy possibly even imagine the death of the girl that kissed him.
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Jayde out
