Guys tomorrow Tuesday 12th of August is my official First day of fricken High School! I am so not excited I am super scared well not 'super' scared but for sure i'm nervous. I been planing today:
-what if I run to all my classes to,sit in the back
-what if I fall
-what if I hit a guy
(That would be awkward)
-and what if I go late in one of my classes cause someone was blocking my way to my locker
(I don't think that would happen but people now in days could be possible)
-what if a guy likes me and asks me out
(witch will never happen cause it's the first day but still)
-AND WHAT WILL HAPPEN IF I MET THE BAD BOY
(I hope not)
And those were the things that stayed in my mind. My locker is G8 but the bad thing about my whole timetable is that all my classes are far away Example I got to my 1st period witch is 704 I have to run all across the fucking school to get to E10 then run all the,way down to C8 then back up to 129 and run all the way down to get to 601 then back up to my gym then back down to get to my locker. Point is i'm going to be exhausted on the first day of school. And yeah I curse myself for being stupied trust I regret being stupied me in elementary in middle school to now i'm stuck on the dumb classes like i'm not that stupied I just acted like it cause well I was young and stupied
My timetable:
1- English- 704
2- Acad Lit Sh 9A- 711
(trust I don't know what that is to)
3- Health Sh- 702
4- Thea intro A- E10
5- Sci 1A- C8
6- Pe- Gym
7- Algebra 1- 129
8- Alg1 Tut lab A- 340
H- homeroom- 601
and that's my timetable for 9th grade. i'm just wishing I don't get introuble in a fight get disliked by teachers or people I wish I don't get to live the 'High School Experience' cause honestly I want to graduate not party or whatever my opinion it's dumb. No offense but i'm not going to be a futcher hobo I want a nice payed job a nice home a really nice car and a dog witch i'm naming it 'Happy' :). Notice I didn't say a nice family why? Cause I don't want to have kids or a husband. I know what you guys are saying i'm a cold hart-ed person but honestly that's just me I don't want to be in that seriously relationship cause I feel like i'm going to be a bad mom and wife so to just make everyone happy I won't get married or have kids. Yeah I been in a relationship with johnny for 5 months but in all honestly i'm breaking up with him right now cause we have no what so ever communication now it was great and stuff but I don't know if may be ignoring me cause he may have a whore on his lap while i'm here in california worrying about him cause he loves street fights but ohhh not watching like it's been more then 3 weeks what if he's dead for all I know! But I know he's still alive cause he reads my messages but he don't respond. And i'm tired being the only one that tries all my fucking best to be with him but he's to complicated to help he cuts so do I but I help him and he helped me to and i'm not embarrassed to admit it and just cause I did it doesn't mean I want your pity. I didn't ask to be born on this fucked up generation were girls think it's fine as hell to be flashing guys on the phone, the internet, the streets, for crying out loud girls could even be flashing in school to be what popular! Ha no thanks I rather be the emo freak at least no guys will expect anything from me.When I see old school movies like 'grease' I always think 'Why couldn't have I been born at that time' like really girls were so pretty with those long skirts and yeah there were hoes back then but at least they had class and most importantly more clothes then the hoes in my generation. But i'm not complaining I love the advance tech XD . And once and a while some cute guys and the awesome movies now in days and the food and lastly My Video Games!
well guys that's it ill update tomorrow if i'm not exhausted
Love u all
Jay is out
