The thoughts in the back of your mind.

Left shin

Maybe you've fallen down the stairs and its been 1 hour, 15 minutes and 42 seconds and the pain on your left shin still hurts. You've removed the anklet you had on that ankle because every time you  moved and heard the cling of the metal it brought you back to the sharp stinging pain in your left shin. All you can think about is the pain in your left shin. All you can think about is the pain and how it won't and is refusing to go away. The stinging pain is now and today and it feels like not even the coldest, iciest freezing ice will make it okay. 

But for some reason its 4 hours, 2 minutes and 52 seconds later and your walking to the bathroom  and as you pass the sharp corner of the stairs that caused your pain you look at the swollen left shin that's pain you have forgotten all about. All of a sudden it feels all better almost like it was never hurting. its gone. If this pain is so easily forgotten then why is my chest hurting in a caved in spot where my heart should be. Its hurting and sometimes it feels like its hard to breath and sometimes hard to cry and I haven't took the time to learn and figure out why but there's this stinging in my chest. There lies a deadly smell of a rotten heart and pain that should have been long forgotten. Pains in my chest started 13 years, 156 months, 677 weeks, 4745 days and 122,322 hours 12 minutes ago and my pain still hasn't been been able to recover. I wish someone would come take away this pain from my heart that's been haunting me all of my life because I'm getting so tired if waking up to another day of pain. Wash it, wash it all away maybe tomorrow I can live a better day and tomorrow can have me feeling a brand new way because now I'm getting, getting to tired to stay and maybe just maybe the higher power can meet me half way because maybe tomorrow I will start feeling okay.