The thoughts in the back of your mind.

Its Hard Not to Doubt Happiness

The demon inside me is roaring but my eyes on the outside are pouring and if you didn't love me too begin with you shoulda give me a warning.

I shouldn't have loved you as hard or said I love you as much knowing that my heart is soft and gentle to the touch.

I don't really even think I feel anything anymore knowing that one day someone will find me dead and while opening the door they will find that I am dead on the floor and I will no longer be here anymore.

And when I die ship me off to the ocean starting off at the shore. It's nobody's fault. Yours or mine but I've dealt with it too much and I'm too far along the line.

And no, no none of this time has actually been fine. And when they find me dead they shouldn't act surprised and you should do as i say and do as i advise which is let me leave and let me say goodbye. It would help me and it would help you too. This was your chance and it was your chance that you had screwed.

And I wish that you knew and hope you knew how much I have been through. Because now it's my turn, my turn to be sad. To be upset and to be mad. Wish i had a parent, a mom or a dad because maybe then I'd be glad instead of sitting here wishing for something I never had. Now I think I'm going insane with the pain that's in my heart.

You hurt me and ripped me apart, and I hope that you leave me since you were never here from the start.