Your My Everything

9

             *Y/N's P.O.V*
     *Mild Trigger Warning*

As we ran back to Brendon's house I was crying because last time this happened Brendon tried to self harm. I got up to Brendon's front door and burst through. "WHERE'S BRENDON?!?" I screamed at Grace, Boyd and Dallon. Dallon looked at me and said "he's in the bathroom" he said pointed to the bathroom. Oh god no, he's in the bathroom doing god knows what I thought to myself. " NO NO, OH GOD NO, WHY DID YOU LET HIM GO UP THERE ALL ALONE?!?!" I screamed as I ran up I the bathroom. The door was locked and I heard sobbing. "Brendon, please, I'm right here, open the door" I said as calmly as I could. "No" he said firmly. "Brendon open the door!" Tyler said firmly. "NO!!" Brendon screamed back. I got down and sat my back against the door and let the tears fall. "B, please, I love you so much, please don't do this to yourself, your worth so much more than you think. I need you to open the door Bren. Please. For me?" I said. He sobbed and said "come in, and only Y/n" he said. "Yeah that's fine, I'll come in, just unlock the door B" I said and got up. I heard the door unlock so I opened the door and closed it immediately after I got in. After I got in, I immediately hugged him and nuzzled my face in the crook of his neck. "God I love you so much B, I don't know what I would do without you." I said and pulled him closer. He nuzzled his face farther into my neck. I sighed and pulled away from the hug and said "now... do you need to talk?". He nodded and sat down and pulled me into his lap. "Talk" I said and nuzzled my face into his neck. "Well, I guess I could say I got jealous when Tyler took you to that place and you didn't answer my calls or my texts and I thought that you left for Tyler and I guess I thought that you thought that I wasn't good enough for you. Which I know I'm not. I know I'm not good enough for you. I know that you could do so much better than me. Everybody is always better than me. I'm always second best at everything." Brendon said as tears started pouring down his face. I looked at him and said "you will always be good enough for me B. You'll always be my number one. It doesn't matter if your the worst at everything else in the world because you'll always be the best to me. You always make me laugh when I need to. You always make me happy when I'm sad and I'm so grateful that your in my life because your my number one. I love you B." He looked at me and kissed me passionately. I turned around so I was straddling his lap (not sexually) and kissed him back. I wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him tightly. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled my closer to him. I pulled away from the kiss and nuzzled my face into his chest and breathed his scent in slowly. Cheap cologne and coffee. It wasn't a great smell. But it smelled like Brendon. And right now, Brendon was my everything. He was the reason I was wanting to be alive right now. I loved him the most right now.

*Brendon's P.O.V*

Y/N was nuzzling her face into my chest, she was the best thing that's ever happened to me. I love her so much. I know I could never be good enough for her though. I would never be able make her happy enough. Billie is able to do that though. Billie can do anything for her. I know that Billie is the one for her. "Y/n" I said and put my hands on her cheeks to make her look directly into my eyes. "Yes" she said as she stared at me with those beautiful Y/E/C eyes. "Billie is the one for you" I said. She furrowed her eyebrows and said "what are you talking about Bren?" She said. Bren. That nickname made this 10 times harder. I sighed as a few tears threatened to spill. "Billie is the one you need to pick, he's the one that is going to make you happy all the time, he's the one that's going to do anything for you, no matter the consequences. Billie would do anything for you. He loves you so much. I'm saying this because I know I could never do any of those things for you. I could never make you fully happy. I love you so much but I want... need you to be happy otherwise, I won't be happy and I know how much that means to you. You need to go see Billie and get him stable and explain to him that you chose him. I'll even go with you for support. I just... I need you to do this, please, I know it will work out in the end." I said and then gave her a passionate kiss. She licked my bottom lip and I granted her access. I moaned into the kiss and grabbed her hips. She pulled my hair and I grunted. I kissed down her neck and softly nibbled at the base of her neck. She moaned quietly as I sucked on her neck, definitely leaving a hickey. I pulled away and chuckled. "Okay we got a little carried away, we need to go find Billie okay" I said. She nodded and put her face in the crook of my neck, softly kissing there. She got up and I pulled myself up from the floor. I looked down at her and hugged her again. "I love you so much Y/n, you have no idea how much I love you" I said.

*Y/N P.O.V*

"I love you so much Y/n, you have no idea how much I love you" he said as he buried his face in the crook of my neck. I smiled and said "I love you too B". "Hey guys... everything... okay in there" said Tyler. Tyler. I totally forgot about him. Well shit. "Yeah were all good in here, sorry Tyler we'll be right out" I said and opened the door. Tyler looked at our tear stained cheeks and then he saw my hickey that Brendon gave me. He smirked and wiggled his eyebrows. "Shut up Ty" I said and playfully punched his shoulder. "Okay so here's the plan Ty" I said and then explained the whole Billie thing. "Alright lets go find Beej" I said. Alright... here's goes nothing.