The discovery of Melody

Chapter 2

He's touching me, touching in places he shouldn't be. I'm crying, feeling hopeless that my life is going to end tonight.

"You like that, little bitch?" He sneers at me "You like daddy touching you huh? You should be thankful a guy like me would want you." I cry louder, trying to get the attention of anybody passing by, but it's useless. Nobody hears me.

"Shut the fuck up bitch!" He slaps me, then gags me with a nasty chiffon. "Nobody loves you, especially not Lewis." He laughs crudely. "You think a guy like him, would want somebody like you?"

He yanks my panties off of me, and I'm crying harder. My innocence is being taken and I'm completely bound to this nasty ass chair, with my lower body completely bare. This person is going to take me and use me however he wants.

I try to scream through this chiffon, but it's worthless, I start to feel numb, I know what my fate will be.

"Oh, baby this is going to feel so good." He enters me, and I just break inside, I stopped crying anymore. Why would I cry? I knew it was coming.

Once he's done with me, I just feel so lost and not in control of my body anymore.

"I hoped you enjoyed this as much as I did babe" He tells me with a wicked grin. "I hope to see you soon." He kisses me on my forehead and releases me from my seat. He leaves.

I wake up gasping for air. I've had this nightmare almost every night for the last year. My family doesn't know about this event of my life. I couldn't deal with their reactions if I told them, they would pity me. I can't face that. 

I try to recompose myself and go take a shower because I suddenly feel dirty. In the shower I completely break down. I feel like I'm crying for hours and hours. I remember that day as if it was yesterday, the disgust I felt but also the beginning of this numbness. This numbness is my way of survival in this world. It's sad to say that I am not happy with my life, I don't know how to change it.

I get out of my shower and cover myself in my black fluffy robe. As I look myself in the mirror, I see dark bags under my eyes. I can't show myself in that predicament. I take out my expensive beauty products and start lathering my face with it. My makeup is my savior at this moment, he covers up every flaw I have on my face, and I usually don't get out of my house without it. The only time I feel comfortable is when I see Adelaine or Dylan. I'm myself when they're by my side. I know they aren't going to judge me.

I walk through my walk-in closet and try to select my clothes for this dreaded day. Today is the day I know if I fail once again my freshman year of if I succeed. I really think it's the former but hope for the latter. I dress in this cute red casual dress with white polka dots on them. I pair this dress with white stilettos. It's really uncomfortable but as this is considered a formal event, I have to dress the part.

When I'm ready I descend the stairs and I see my parents waiting for me, and I just know this is going to me an excruciating conversation.

"You're so beautiful honey!" My mom exclaimed. "Today is such an important day, I hope this time you'll succeed." By the tone of her voice I knew I had to succeed otherwise I was going to be in trouble.

"Thanks mom for the boost of confidence." I say with sarcasm in my voice.

"Oh honey, everything will be fine. If you worked hard this year, it will definitely pay off." Well they really think I'm going to pass this thing huh. We'll see. I bid my goodbyes, and then head to my car. I called her Betsie, she's a bright red Toyota my parents got me for my sixteenth birthday. Betsie is really flashy, which is why I fell in love with her immediately, she draws attention, in a good or a bad way. But she doesn't care. I feel weird talking about my car as if she was a human being, but you understand what I'm saying.