{COMPLETED} Black Butler x reader

A dream, a death, the reality || Joker x reader

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This is literally the worst story I have ever written I'm only posting it because its all I have right now.

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(Joker POV)

"Joker, don't do this" (Y/n) said, her lip quivered in fear against me, I stepped forward and pressed her against the wall, she whimpered and turned her head to the side. Using the knife in my hand (ya know, the bone knife thing he had in the last episode) I turned her head so it was looking at me, her eyes where scrunched closed as her breathing quickened.

"Look at me, I am your leader you obey" I said in a stern voice, I dropped the knife for a moment as my hand came up to grip her throat, her eyes flew open as I tightened my grip and her airways that slowly started to cut off.

"Don't do this" (Y/n) said sternly with little air as her eyes became slits, her eyes bore into me, showing hatred and dread in them, "it isn't you, none of this is!" she yelled the last part, frustrated, I tightened my grip on her throat, taking away all of the air and slowly suffocating her.

"Don't you dare say that my love, this is me, I have to be like this, and WE have to be like this, Father would be furious if we didn't obey" I said, her hand came up and started to try and scratch and pry at my hand, "Father saved us from that pile of rubbish. He gave us hands and legs, allowing us to protect what is most precious to us. That's why we decided to live. Even though it meant living in another kind of hell." I said, my voice going to stern and dark tone. The girl in front of me started rolling her eyes back as darkness started to overcome her, I let go of her throat and let her drop to the ground, she started heaving breaths of air and looked up at me through half lidded eyes, she was to bothered with trying to get air back into her lungs to even register that the knife was next to her, so I bent down to her level and looked at her while grabbing the knife, "you do look pretty on your knees, to bad I have a job to take care of, and to think, you really thought I loved something like you" I said, I glared at her, remembering old times of us together.

"JOKER DON'T D-" she yelled. I plunged the knife into her stomach, her blood quickly coating both the knife, her clothing and my hand, her eyes where wide with pain, blood dripped down the side of her mouth. I pulled the knife from inside her as her hand quickly came to her wound and tried to push on it to stop the bleeding as she lent against the wall for support. I looked at the knife coated in her blood that gleamed in the light, the girl looked up at me through lidded eyes again. Her hand came up and she gripped the material of my pants, quickly getting it soaked in her blood. She opened her mouth to try and say something but all that she could do was gurgle the blood in her mouth, a faint 'why' could be heard from her, I knelt down to her and held her face in my left hand as the knife lay on the floor beside me.

"Because I have too" I whispered, I brought her forehead to mine just as her body went limp, "it's my job" I whispered as tears streaked my own cheeks, I stood up and let her body fully fall to the floor, her blood poured onto the ground from both her wound and her mouth, a scream resided from the body beneath me and shook the whole place

I shot up from my bed, panting and heaving and drenched in sweat, looking around quickly I was still in my tent, my blankets had been thrown of me during my sleep and it was cold. I grabbed my dressing gown quickly and walked out of my tent, it was still the middle of the night, but I had somewhere I needed to be in this moment in time. The ground was soft but sticky, the rocks and pebbles hurt but I couldn't care less right now, shoving the tents folds open I walked to the sleeping girls form and checked for a pulse, my hand must have been cold because I had awoken the girl, "Joker? What in the bloody blazes are you doing here" she said looking at me.

"I had a bad dream" was all she said and immediately understood, she opened her blankets and slid over, letting me get into her bed, and "Joker, you're freezing" she said. The girl wrapped the blanket around both me and her, she brought me into her chest and I wrapped my arms around her waist.

"You died" I said quietly, she played with my hair and ran her hand through it.

"Shhh, it's okay, it's okay I'm here, I'm alive, I'm breathing" she said, I pressed my ear against her chest, there, in fact, was a heartbeat, soft and harsh at the same time. I heaved out a breath I didn't realise I was keeping in and hugged the girl tightly.

"Please don't leave me, please don't ever die" I whispered, the girl chuckled.

"I promise my sweet" she said and kissed my head, "now go to sleep" and with that, I let myself be carried off into a deep sleep in the girls' arms.

(Some time later)

"You promised you wouldn't die!" I yelled to the bleeding girl in my arms. She smiled.

"It was worth your life though" she said, she brought her hand up and cupped my cheek, her blood drenched my skin, cold.

"But it wasn't, I should have listened to you when I had a chance" I said, tears fell freely down my face and onto hers. Her stomach was bleeding out freely, the gun wound ripped right through the girl like a knife on a sail boat. Smile and Black stood above us. She was losing strength.

"I.....I know I....promised, but promise me.....you'll live....for me" she said, I nodded.

"Anything for you my love" I whispered out to her, I bent down to her face and kissed her lips one last time, her body went limp in my lap, her lips soon went cold and no life adorned her precious features anymore. Tears flowed from my eyes down my cheeks in an incredible speed, I was dry wrenching, sobbing harshly. I closed the girl's eyes and let her lay on the ground. The blood from my own wound was drenching my clothes and hers, I placed my hand over it to stop it but it wouldn't work, I was losing strength faster than I could gain it.

"Sebastian, burn this place" Smile said.

"But, my lord, the children, and Joker and (Y/n)" Black said.

"I DON'T CARE, those children are as good as gone, I've seen the looks on their faces before, and they cannot be brought back, as for the others? Well, they're already as good as dead, Sebastian this is an order, burn this place" Smile said, Blacks face was in his hands, Black gave a weird smirk as his eyes started glowing a weird pink.

"As you wish, my lord" Black said. And with that the man walked over to one of the candle stands, the flames burst with life and engulfed the building, everything was hot. I was clinging onto life, I laid on my back next to (Y/n) as Black and Smile started walking out of the building.

"We will be together soon...my love" I said softly, closing my eyes I let the darkness consume me, sweeping me off of my feet and into the air with the others, my family, and (Y/n).

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This really fucking sucks tbh

~Yëager