The Unmixables

Chapter 8

A few days went by. My mom was officially in a relationship with Tony. She had him over last night for dinner and it was awkward as hell, he wanted to know how things were, how things were with Tammy, realized it was a bad conversation topic, and stopped talking for the rest of the evening. Tammy was still on my mind, nothing was going to work, she wasn't answering my texts, my calls, my emails, my Facebook messages, nothing. The worse part is she's got everyone against me, even Jonny. The others I knew would've hated me, but Jonny, I had no idea he was that easy to break. I was alone. This time for real. I sent ten times more messages and calls than her the day she found out, but Charlotte, she was sending quadruple that. Every minute of the past few days were filled with messages and voicemails like: "Hey, I need to talk, gotta minute?" and "Obviously you don't have a minute you spare for me, hope you're okay". Very annoying, but I was doing it too, so I couldn't blame her. I decided a enough was enough, and texted her, "What's wrong? Make it quick". A few minutes later she replied back, saying: "Better in person, be over soon" and I was typing telling her not to come over until I hear the front doorbell ring. My mom opened the door and told her I was upstairs. She came running up the stairs, and opened my door. I looked at her and said, "Hi", she waved and came in and then closed the door behind her. "What's wrong with you?" I asked, "Oh" she started, "Nothing needed an excuse to come over", "Fuck sake Charlotte", "What?", "Nothing you need to go", "What's wrong first, Tammy find out?", I sighed and said "Yes, yes she did" and picked up her bra and threw it at her, "This is yours by the way" I said, "Thanks forgot about this". And we sat there in silence until a tear started pouring down my cheek, the sudden realization that i was alone hit my harder than before. I mean, i knew i was alone, but i didn't feel it till someone was with me, in my own silence. She started confronting me and I was crying like a baby. I haven't cried like this since I seen my dad hit my mom for the first time, I learned to deal with it the next few times. "I love her", I said in Charlottes arms. "I love her and I ruined it", Charlotte was shushing me, telling me its not my fault, then who's is it? "I hated her when I had her, now that I don't I love her", Charlotte wasnt saying anything just letting me ramble. "There is a place reserved in hell for her, but there I also one in here" and pointed at my heart. "And honestly, I can't tell which is more worse" and started crying more. Charlotte let me go and slapped me, then said: "Grow some fucking balls, Oliver. You love her? Prove it, instead of sitting here crying hoping she'll forgive you. Forgiveness isn't just something that you get handed to you, you work for it. Now go work for hers and maybe you'll get her back, I highly doubt it, but no harm in trying". She was wrong. Very wrong. Tammy would never forgive me even if I put a gun to her head and threatened to pull the trigger if she didn't, she'd probably pull it herself. I wanted to make things right, I knew I wasnt getting her back but I had to try even if it was going to end in total failure.