Twice As Hot | Jikook ✓

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내 작은 천사 🥺💛🐣

JIMIN
I regret not telling you sooner..

JIMIN
I really should've explained myself, but I was scared y'know?

JIMIN
I didn't want you feeling bad bc I was in pain without you..

JIMIN
I didn't want you dropping your life for me, I couldn't do it

JIMIN
I couldn't live with myself if you ruined your future

JIMIN
that's why I told you no, that's why I kept you here in busan

JIMIN
I wanted a happy jungkook, a healthy and spirited one to come home to

JIMIN
a jungkook with a good stable career, nice and secure life

JIMIN
thats exactly what I came home to 🥺

JIMIN
you were so young, 19 years old, your story was just beginning, I didn't wanna take that away from you

JIMIN
you were sweet enough to willingly drop this modeling and photography to join me on tour..

JIMIN
I couldn't accept that type of sacrifice from you, I love you too much..

JIMIN
im older than you, I feel it's my responsibility to influence you. I wanted the best for you, at that moment it wasn't me :(

JIMIN
I would've held you back so much, there'd be nowhere for you to go

JIMIN
you'd still be the same handsome boy, there's just no guarantee you'd be a professional model

JIMIN
there's no guarantee you'd be enjoying the life that I would've inevitably created for you

JIMIN
I didn't wanna determine your future, I wanted YOU to make your own choices, ones that didn't have to revolve around my own..

JIMIN
that would've been so unfair of me.. id be the worst person ever had I let you come on tour with me

JIMIN
you're very loving, very sweet and caring.. I know that's the reason why you were so ready to set them aside to be with me

JIMIN
I couldn't let you do that for me.. it's too much..

JIMIN
id rather endure the pain of missing you rather than being forced to watch you drown alone because I was too busy to be yours..

JIMIN
it was really selfish of me, I know you missed me just as much..

JIMIN
but I swear, they were nothing but good intentions

JIMIN
I knew that if I told you, it wouldn't've made that decision any easier for me.. :(

JIMIN
it was hard enough watching myself leave an amazing friend and brother behind

JIMIN
imagine how much worse it would've been had I left my boyfriend behind..

JIMIN
I wanted to ask you so bad kookie, ive wanted to be with you for so long 😥

JIMIN
I still do..

JIMIN
I knew how you felt, every ounce of it was reciprocated

JIMIN
protecting you comes first tho, it always has.. 🥺 always will

JIMIN
that's why I wanted to wait till now, when im officially back to be yours

JIMIN
if you still want me back?

JIMIN
I missed you so much, I wanted to hug you, kiss you, hold you

JIMIN
I wanted you, I still do

JIMIN
I just put you first, im not more important than your future kook-ah :(

JIMIN
it hurt me for three years

JIMIN
but it was worth it, look at who you are now because of it

JIMIN
you're the most handsome boy ive ever seen.. you've gotten so big and strong while I was away

JIMIN
you're so happy with yourself, you light up the room with your smile :(

JIMIN
you're so YOU, that's all I ever wanted for my precious boy

JIMIN
im here now though, im yours now

JIMIN
I always was, and if im lucky enough

JIMIN
maybe you're ready to be mine once and for all? 🥺