You Should Be Here

Chapter Eight

Bryson-

"Yea I'm about to go in now" I said as I parked my car

"Is your parents there?" Toriilyn ask making me shake my head

"'My dads at work, I'm not for sure about Carrie. Hopefully she's not here I'm not in the mood for talking right now" I said as I got out the car

"Well I mean you do need to talk her, it's been a while since you seen her"

"I don't need to do anything toriilyn, I'm not you I'm not gonna talk to my mom because I feel like I need my mom in my life. I don't need her and I don't want her in my damn life" I said and hung up the phone getting my key out

Putting the key in the key hold it didn't work stepping back I look around

"I know this man did not change the fucking locks" I said as I walked around the back to the backyard

"Shit" I shook my head

"What are you doing here" my dad said putting his drink down and walking toward me

"I need to get some of my stuff that I left here" I tried to walk pass him but he push me back making me look at him

"I don't know what for, you left remember I brought everything in the damn house so your not getting nothing" he said

"Nahh I brought that shit, you didn't do shit for me other than buy me that damn car and give me a place to stay"

"Well you can give me that fucking car back since you wanna have a smart mouth"

"Ok but let me get my stuff" I pushed pass him going into the house stopping in my tracks as I seen who was in the kitchen

"Hey bry bry" She said smiling

The women who beat me my whole life, the same women who molested me my entire child hood the women who traded me for drugs was standing right in my face smiling

"Get the fuck outta my face" I said as I went upstairs hearing footsteps behind me

"Don't you dare come to my house and talk to your mother that way"

Mother

"Did you just say my mother, that bitch is nothing to me yo she did nothing for me except rape me and beat me multiple times where I ended up in the hospital your not saying shit about that are you? And don't forget about how she sold me for drugs" i looked at both of them ready to cry

This was something I feared seeing my mother in front of me acting like she did nothing wrong

Sitting on the stairs I broke down, it was the fact that my father acting like nothing even happened

"Bryson im sorry, I was young and I didn't know how to raise you" she said coming up to me

"You didn't know how to raise me, stop fucking lying! You did know how to raised me until I was about 3 when you started doing drugs you chose drugs over ME!" I yelled wiping my tears

"Bryson I didn't know what I was doing I was young"

"Young my ass, and you knew what you was doing every night you came home drunk and snuck in my room and gave me oral just at the age of 4. So saved that "I was young" bullshit" I said getting up going into my room closing and locking the door

"I didn't want to do that at all, and I'm sorry I just found out That my sister died and before she died she told me that I should repair our relationship. Life is to short to be holding grudges all the time. I totally understand how bad I treated you but you also wasn't a easy child to take care of I tried my best I did things bad and so did you. But I want to be in my sons life"

Wiping my tears I sat on my bed packing clothes into a bag wiping the tears that was coming down

I didn't want to do this

Is she really trynna pin the abuse, the rape and the bad parenting on me because I threw tantrums when I'd don't get the candy I wanted or when I cried because I was hungry or when I cried because she beat me horrible breaking on my bones and didn't take me to the hospital scared for HER own life that she would be taken to jail.

Was she really pinning this on me

I was just a little child how was this any of my fault.

"Are you really saying your bad parenting was my fault? You know what fuck you! And fuck you to" I said walking pass Carrie and John

I can't even called them my parents

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Walking on the beach I found a space to sit down at, unfolding the blanket I sat down and pulled out my phone looking at the missed calls I had from John

Going to the YouTube app I cut on two hours on thunderstorms sounds.

Laying back I looked up at the sky

"So tell me how did I get here" I said as I placed my arms under my head

They really ain't shit parents, I still couldn't get the thought of my Ded defending Carrie and just for that I don't think I could ever forgive him for that. I would never forgive Carrie for trying to pin the pain and the mental issues that I have now on me but in reality it came from her.

My schizophrenia came from her beating me and changing everything around me. She would changed my whole room around very day while I was at school for I can come home and be confused and panic.

She loved when I was in pain, she loved when I cried she loved when she beat me because I didn't want to have oral with her.

Is that the type of mother that toriilyn wants me to forgive? How can I forgive a person like that

I just can't, and I won't

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I hated writing this chapter 😭but it was necessary now you kinda know why Bryson feel the way he does about his mom

Him and toriilyn are two different people. Toriilyn wants her mom in her life even after she kicked her out when she needed her the most and the other end Bryson believe he doesn't need his mom for anything he would never forgive her for all the pain she caused him.

So yea stay tuned for the next chapter