The dark haired threat

part 18-an inner monologue

Hello! Massive massive massive apologies I haven't touched this story in far too long!!
Here is an update-a key moment in the story so please enjoy and thank you all so fricken chicken much for 1.27K reads-that's absolutely crazy!
I've had a tough time recently and this has made me feel so much better so I can't express my thanks enough. Without further or do- here is the long awaited update!
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bailey struts away from me feeling smug about himself and his ginormous ego which I do admittedly keep fuelling. It genuinely is all just a part of the act im playing though. I remind myself as I enter the universe of reality to realise I am once again left alone to drown in the serene atmosphere the gorgeous sword provides for me generously. It honestly is the most beautiful thing I've ever had the sheer pleasure to feast my eyes upon so maybe Clove was right-maybe I do posses some kind of messed up fetish for this sword.

There's just something about it that makes me feel so relaxed, so comfortable, so....home. it's like ive finally discovered a place where I feel like I fit in as my true self which can be a dangerous game to play living under the constant eye of the capital. The only other place I feel like this is when I'm....I'm......when I'm looking at Clove.

Suddenly it comes flooding back to me as if a dam in my brain has just been broken down and all the feelings ive ever felt since the first time I saw clove are rushing through my body in a violent current. Her sharp brown eyes, her amazing fair skin, her fascinating physique and her hysterical range in vocabulary. I'm falling in love with Clove.
This wasn't a part of the plan, this isn't how it is supposed to go. I didn't think love even existed but now I'm feeling it and now I've seen it there is no denying it.

I am totally, tragically and undeniably falling in love with her.

Our infatuation is depending and there is nothing I can do to stop it-I don't WANT to stop it. If this is what it's like to love then I don't ever want to stop. I want to use this silver sword to protect her, I want to use my arms to comfort her and my eyes to make her feel like she makes me feel-as if she is home.

My entire life ive never known where home is but looking at her I know ive found it. I have arrived at the destination I didn't know I was looking for from a journey I didn't even know i travelling on. This is love. It has to be.

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