I Still Love You (sterek)

Dream

Im sorry, this is a trigger warning, im serious please don't read if you get trigger by this or get trigger easily. If u o read the Im sorry like i said in my other books i write chapters to what I'm feeling so if it sound crappy and shitty asf i'm sorry guy

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Stiles Pov

You know that feeling that is like a scratching at your heart? the one that make you feel like shit. That feeling of betrayal. That's what I'm feeling right now. It's like my world has fallen apart. The image of that perfect someone just crumble to pieces, and you just don't know if you could put them back together.

You had thought they had truly loved you, but then out of nowhere you're told that they never had any emotions in the first place for you. Though the only thing you can do is cry yourself to sleep, or write all your thoughts into your secret journal.

I loved you so much, but now I don't even know if i could trust you enough to even hold my hand out to you. I fucking love you but i guess you didn't feel the same way back. Maybe there was something wrong with me? maybe it was my face? My personality? or is it my entire being?

Shadow: You knew he never loved you, why are you even still trying? just give up, you weren't worth him to love you back.

Maybe i wanted to believe i was. Maybe i wanted to believe he did. even though deep inside i knew.. i knew he never did. Thats probably i tried to fill that big empty hole with lies, smiles and blood. Pretend everything was fine even though it was killing me inside.

Which was destroying my mind and created this... thing..

shadow: why don't you just kill yourself? i mean your best friend don't give two fucks about you anymore either. People who you care about wants to kill themselves. You're useless as a friend and as a lover so why even try?

Thats right.. why do i even try to keep breathing anymore? I'm so fucking useless can even help my friends get through what they needed. they're in a much worser state than me. why the hell... am i so.. useless...

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I woke up with tears in my eyes and remembering that shadow of mine slowly disappear as it said it's last thoughts "why don't you just die then?"

My heart was breaking more and more as i sat in silence crying my eyes out and silently screaming into the darkness..

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