Future Lies // Harrison Wells (Eobard)

16. I do understand

- I don't remember - Harrison said, walking in the cortex carrying me, my arms around his neck.

- Are you a century or something? - I giggled - Come on, Harrison, just one - I said with my finger in front of his face - one childhood memory -

- Alright, let me think - he tilted his face sighing - I wanted to be a hero - he answered after a long pause.

- Like the flash? -

- You could say that - I stop holding him, so he let go of my legs, and I put my feet on the floor.

- You're a hero to me, Harrison - I said soothingly.

- I don't feel like one - he said looking at the computers, I know this is hard for him, we haven't talked about it since we came back to the hospital months ago, and it was evident that he didn't want to touch upon the matter, if not forever, at least not in the near future.

- But I do feel it - He turned to look at me, and I smiled, but he stilled with his uneasy expression.

He got closer to me - Rhia - it looked like he was about to say something but the one thing that he did, was, caress my cheek, he opened his mouth, but rapidly closed it again, we stayed looking at the other, I wanted him to talk to me, but I didn't want to pressure him.

The alarm, that tells us when someone enters the building, rang, probably Cisco or Caitlin, Harrison went back to sit on the wheelchair, and I went to look for my computer, that I'm sure I left it here yesterday.

- What you've found of Eiling, baby - he stopped typing on his computer and took off his glasses.

- Nothing much - I said showing him the screen of my computer - He's been running some testings, though -

- that may be the reason - He scrolled at the information I found.

- The woman we are looking for is part of the ones being - I coughed - she's part of--

- It's okay, you don't have to say the words - he gazed up at me, and I bit my lip - I know it a sensitive subject for you - he said in a hoarse tone.

- okay - I mumbled.

- let's go back with the team - he said closing my laptop and extended his hand, I took it and we walked out of his office.

After all the things that happened since we found Bette, the woman that makes things explode, everyone eventually left STAR labs, first Barry, then Caitlin, and finally Cisco. Harrison and I stayed a little longer, making sure that everything was okay, he went to talk to her, and I stayed in the office, analyzing those awful experiments.

I stood up and went to his computer and saw that he was talking with her, I turn on the volume, I wasn't expecting to hear those words in such a harsh tone, coming from his mouth.

- Did you just told her to kill Eiling - I flared up the moment he crossed the door frame - Do you really want that? - I shouted for the first time at him.

- You didn't suppose to hear that - he said getting up from the wheelchair and closing the door.

- But I did - I said in a softer tone - So. Do you really want that, or it's a trap for her - I felt my jaw trembling.

- Rhia - he said, and I'm sure that it doesn't matter what his answer will be, I'm going to cry, I can feel them coming - What would you do - he said in his soft tone, getting closer to me, but I took various steps backward - If there's a threat close to the one you love - he took a long step toward me, and I kept walking backward until I felt the wall against my back - and the people you care about. Would you wait until everyone gets killed? - he said putting his hands on the wall, leaving my head between them - I can't wait for that -

I closed my eyes the tears traveled around my cheeks, he whispered my name, but I kept crying, I heard him telling me to look at him but I couldn't - Rhia - he said and I felt his hand on my shoulder - it was the only option - his voice filling my mind again, but it was trembling, his voice sounding broken like it never did - please - he held me, but I kept crying, without saying a word, without looking at him, he hugged me, and I didn't respond, my body was numb until he started moving away, I immediately held him, I can't accept this, but I don't want him gone.

- They're back - Harrison said softly, I removed my arms from around his waist and smiled, it doesn't matter that my eyes were drowning in tears, I could never stop smiling at the man I love - Why don't you stay here, until you calm down - I nodded and sat on his chair. I decided to go out of the office until everyone was gone, I didn't want them to see me like this, they'll start asking why, and I can not answer them with the truth, not if that can hurt Harrison.

When they left, Harrison and I went to the cortex, I laid on one of the beds Caitlin use for the patients, and by patients I meant Barry. - You understand why I did it, right? - he said, still sitting on the wheelchair, I looked at him - I didn't give it a second thought, all I thought was that she was dangerous and that she needed to leave - I nodded, giving him a weak smile, I do understand. He opened his mouth, to say more, but the alarm sounded, it was Eiling, again. - Wait here - I sat and waited for the general to leave, hopefully forever this time.

- So - I said when I saw he came back.

- Let's go home -