S T A Y (reader x Day6)

S T A Y

「Y/N × Young K」

 It's true
That all that you know is all that you are
You said that it's all that you want and more  

Perhaps there was a way to avoid this all. I hate that I was right. I wish I could erase all those awful memories. . . of Brian, of Wonpil, of all of them.  Everything I felt was so intense, so raw and real. When I think about him and his golden smile and his hopeful glowing eyes I get choked up inside. God, why did Brian have to remind me?  Why did he have to be here right now? Even if me and him were a thing of the past, It still hurts to look him in the eye.

  Fuck off and pour another drink
And tell me what you think
You know that I'm too drunk to talk right now

I take as sip of my wine as I start to feel uneasy about all of this. His cold gaze makes my stomach turn. I should be angry at him but instead I feel guilty. 

"Are you just gonna stand there or are you going to say something?" Brian says firmly. I nodded and avoid eye contact. 

"I do not wish to speak. Feel free to talk if you please." I responded finally. 

"Why must you always doge these questions?" 

"Why do you care?" 

He gives a heavy sigh as he pulls his hair back frustrated. 

You put your cigarette out on my face
So beautiful, please, woman don't break your back for me
I'll put you out of your misery

He lights his cigarette out of stress and looks back up at me. 

"I'm not as heartless as you think. You think I don't care about you? Do you really think I wouldn't care about him or everyone else. Do you think I don't spend day and night drinking and thinking of you and us and what could of been?" He says looking at me in tears, before continuing.

"I want to help you. I want to help you get through this. I know I screwed up. However I won't say sorry for anything I've done. Just, please tell me who's it is. Tell if I have a chance to fix this." 

  Tell me that it's all okay (tell me that it's all okay)
I've been waitin' on this all damn day (waitin' on this all damn day)
Call me in the mornin', tell me how last night went

"I want to go back to how we were before. When you would call me and, we would laugh and complain about our friends. You would tell me how much of a slob Dowoon is to live with, and how clingy Wonpil gets. Back when we would go clubbing together and have lunch with Jae and Sungjin."  My heart felt heavy as he told me this. I gently  touched his arm and took a deep breath. I had to stop him from talking more than he should. 

I'm here,  

It's funny. I've been waiting so long to hear those words come out of his mouth, but now that I have finally heard them-

"You say this to me now? Now that it is all over, now that I've built something new with someone else. Now that I've been past the struggle and secrets? Do you really think I would lie to you like that?" 

  but don't count on me to 

 Where did I go wrong? What did I do to end up where I am now? Things where so much simpler 2 years ago. It feels as if suddenly everything I worked so hard for is falling apart. Nothing there's nothing left of us, and no reason for me to-

Stay.