I'm Different Now (Twilight Fic)

Pain

Okay, so sorry for not updating. Life has been hard but I've got some more chapters 2 upload! Yayyy =)

- Chelsea

Chapter 3 

Pain All Around

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Diary Entry 69

Okay, so now I know not to mess with the Alpha of the Pack. And Paul actually had to learn that the hard way.

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"Sam! Sam, she's not waking up!" A loud, demanding, voice said in the darkness. The voice was mixed with worry, sadness and anger. And I found it quite sexy.

Then I realised that that voice was Paul's voice. I mentally scowled myself. How stupid of me to think that I could actually find Paul's voice sexy. Then again, I did imprint on him.

"Sam!" Paul shouted again, interrupting my little monologue.

"Paul man, chill." Jared said. Ha! Paul – the one with the temper actually chill? Again, I say ha!

"How can I?" He was shaking. I could feel his hand shake, and I was actually letting him hold my hand. Wait- Let go of my hand! I tore my hand from Paul's grip and shot up.

"I'm awake now." I said bitterly, looking around. Sam, Emily, Paul and Jared were in my room.

"Bella!" Paul shouted and hugged me. For a split second I actually liked his hugs. Then I pushed him away, looking at my hands. I found them broken and - Wait! What! Why are they - oh. I punched a tree. Oops. I punched a freaking tree. Oh well, I had worse.

"Uh – Bella – "

"You can go." I told him, harshly. I still hated him. He sighed, and got up. With one last look at me and he went away. I felt the pain again. I shook my head, trying to clear everything. Stop Bella. You don't feel this way.

But you do.

Oh shut up! Just remember the bad memories Bella. All of them.

"I'll go with him." Jared said, cutting my thoughts once again. He left, closing the door after him.

Sam sighed shaking his head, then said to me, "Bella – " But I quickly interrupted him.

"Sam … I-uh-" I looked at Emily, thinking of a way for her to go. But she's Sam's future wife. And she's a girl. So she can help me I guess.

"I'll be down stairs." She said, knowing the look I gave her.

"Emily. It's cool. You can stay. You can help me as well." She nodded and sat next to me. I took a deep breathe, wanting to tell my story. "I wanna –"

"Bella. Let me talk first." Sam interrupted. Oh, okay then. Just when I was going to explain myself Sam, you start talking. Okay, gives me more time to actually think. I nodded to him, and he began his story. "Until now –maybe after a few days' ago, I found out that I have a sister. Half-sister - whatever – but a sister no less, but I never actually knew you. I thought I was the only child in my miserable family. So when I found out, I was so happy, but also confused. How could I have a sister? Did dad cheat on mum? And all that stuff, but in lease, I actually have a sister. But what I really wanted to know is if your childhood was as bad as mine.

"When I was a child, my mum took me away to Seattle, right after from my dad started to make my mum a punching bag on a daily basis. She took me from La Push, the place where I was born, were I had my friends and other family members that I loved. She said my father hated me, that he never wanted to have a child like me or even a wife from the start. He knocked up my mum at sixteen, mum was fourteen and her family demanded him to marry her, you know reputation and the family's name.