I'm Different Now (Twilight Fic)

I'm Back But I'm Not Wanted

Chapter 1

I'm Back But I'm Not Wanted

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Diary Entry #67

Can't believe how small the world is. My older brother is best friends with the ones who bullied me. Ha! Such a small world!

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November 5th - Five years ago

"Oh look it's Isabella Marie Uley!" Jacob Black shouted, across the playground, when he stopped me.

"Why, hello, there Isabella." Quil Alteara, sarcastically said, popping next to me, which made me walk faster.

"How's life, chubby?" Jared Cameron asked, laughing, obviously, following me. I was now on the verge of tears. Those stupid nicknames!

"Yeah, how life, down there?" Embry Call, asking, following Jared's question.

"Guys, leave 'Little Miss Chubby' alone now." Paul Lahote said, the only guy I have a crush on. Pathetic, I know. He bullies me but I like him. Maybe he's being nice now. But why though?

"Aw, Paul has a crush on Chubby Wubby." Jared said, punching Paul's shoulder, lightly, I think, well I hope.

"Shut up man! She fat and ugly! I want a girl who's hot and beautiful, not her." Paul shouted at me - almost like he was mad. I was now crying, only Paul can make me cry like this. "See? And she cries! Such a baby!" He continued like it's nothing.

"Stop! Go away! I hate you!" I shouted to them. They were silent for a second then started laughing. Without thinking, I went up to Paul and kneeled his groin. He cried out in pain.

I then ran home, missing my bus.

As I got home, I slammed the door. My mum jumped from the sound. She saw me and asked, "Aw, baby, are you okay?"

"Mum ... Can we go! I hate it here! I want to move!" I said, crying. She cradled me and head me tight.

"Baby, tell me what happened?" she asked.

"Mum, they were bullying me again. Mum, I want to go!" I couldn't stop crying.

"Okay, baby, pack up and we'll head to the airport."

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Present

That day, that horrible day, I knew my mother would never leave me, but now, it all suddely changed.  She did'nt want to leave me, but I guess fate had a different thing in mind.

"I don't regret leaving mum. I never did." I said, to my mum's gravestone. "Mum, everything hurts. You're gone, Phil's gone and now I have to move back to La Push, where all the nightmares come to life." I started to cry. "Mama, why did you leave me? I know you were in pain, but why? Mama, I need you. It hurts, so much." I wiped my tears away. "But what you taught me, I'll always remember it. I will stand up for myself, I always will. I promise you that mama, I promise." I wiped all the tears away and when I was calm and ready, I went to my car and drove to the airport.

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I was sitting near the window of the plane, with my  iPod and journal. I grabbed my journal and wrote.