Kendall's POV :
Have you ever experienced that feelings of emptiness ?
That feeling when you're not necessarily sad, but you just feel really empty.
That's how I felt as I sat in the Local Room , staring out the slightly open window and watched the fall season drop beautifully colored leaves to the ground into massive piles that would eventually need to be raked.
I envy those leaves . Why ? Because they don't have limits.
They could literally go everywhere and no ones going to stop a leaf from blowing.
I bet they never feel trapped.
My thinking was interrupted when a loud scream erupted in the ward , breaking me from my thoughts and pulling me back into reality.
"NOOOO GET OFF OF ME!!" Jackson yelled , fighting the air and crying , the other residents watched sadly.
My eyes filled with tears at the sight before me , it's so sad watching someone struggle internally , because there's nothing you can do to help them.
Jackson is a 14 year old boy with Schizophrenia and he very often hallucinates.
I watched the scene in front of me with wide eyes , as the nurse stuck Jackson with a sedative and he calmed down.
"Kendall sweetie , can you come with me to take your medicine?" Nurse Johnson said.
She was my favorite nurse. We always had deep talks about life and she's going to help me get better so I can leave.
"sure thing" i smiled and followed her to the nurses office.
As we were walking pass the cafeteria i seen two residents hugging , laughing and eating what seemed to be jello cups.
I quietly turned my head and sped up.
Nurse Johnson must have noticed my reaction because she abruptly stopped and turned to face me.
"Kendall , look at me" she sighed sadly
I looked up into her golden brown eyes.
"One day someone is going to hold you so tight , that all of your broken pieces will stick back together. You hear me sweetie ? Love comes to everyone at least once in their life , whether it's the love of a family member or love from a spouse . Everyone is loved." She preached and I simply nodded and continued walking.
That may be true for her , because she's normal. But me on the other hand , some might consider me to be crazy and broken. No one wants to deal with a heart they didn't break.
We reached the nurse office and she proceeded to give me my antidepressant pills, along with the nightly sleeping pill that every resident has to get.
When I got to my room , I stripped out of my clothes and laid down under the thick cover.
I was sleep quicker than you could say Alpaca.
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Never Ending Guilt
Teen Fiction"Never Ending Guilt" is about a 19 year old girl , Kendall Marie Rivera , who has had a rough past. She carries the guilt from her little sisters murder. She feels as if she could have prevented it , if only she would have answered the phone that Sa...
