A/N : hey guys :) this is just a filler chapter so it might be boring and uneventful lol just bare with me , the drama is coming soon !! Love you xoxox
Kendall's POV :
I was awoken to the loud buzzing of my alarm clock , signaling was time for breakfast . I groaned loudly , smacking the alarm clock to stop the retched noise and turned back over to get more sleep when my door was suddenly bursted open.
"Come on Kendall you can't keep skipping breakfast , you're going to be as skinny as a stick" Nurse Patty said while pulling the covers off of me.
"Just leave me alone" i moaned getting out of bed and softly pushing her out of the door and closing it.
After my shower , I walked into the cafe and grabbed a sandwich and orange juice and slowly walked to the counselors office as usual.
"Ahhh hello Kendall , I was expecting you" said Mrs.Martini .
We have these weekly meetings to make sure I'm still on track I guess. These are completely useless though , nothing or no one can take back the guilt I feel for Anna's death . No one.
"How have you been?" She asked looking concerned.
I honestly didn't know how to answer that question. Am I okay ? No . Am I horrible ? No . So I stuck to my usual response to the question.
"I'll be okay . Is that what you want me to say?" I asked sarcastically.
"Kendall you know it's not about what I want you to say , it's about how you are feelings inside hun" mrs.martini said slowly , making me feel like a child getting in trouble for stealing a cookie from the cabinet before dinner.
"Kendall i want you to open up to me. You barely do now a days , I want you to be happy or atleast content with life. I want you to have a life outside of this ward and you won't have that if you keep bottling everything up" she said with a look of pity on her face.
I hate that look .
"You were so happy the other day , everybody noticed . You can't keep slipping into this depression Ken" Mrs.Martini said.
"I'm never happy , somedays I'm just a little less sad then others . You can't just slip back into depressions , it's always there . No matter what's going on the depression is always laying underneath the surface of fake smiles and giggles." I said while standing up and walking out of her office . I don't need pity from her or anybody else.
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Never Ending Guilt
Teen Fiction"Never Ending Guilt" is about a 19 year old girl , Kendall Marie Rivera , who has had a rough past. She carries the guilt from her little sisters murder. She feels as if she could have prevented it , if only she would have answered the phone that Sa...
