Ai Dunno

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So...
Lately i've been thinking
About my relationship with boys...
(gurl,,, this book is just about my shitty relationship -_-)

Imma be honest,
I have 2 older sisters, both of them already married and my 1st older sister married a kinda poor?(i'm sorry but idk how to say it, but she getting a lot of money lately) and my 2nd older sister married a better one than my 1st older sister.

And i believe my 2nd older sister more than the 1st one, so i always follow her advices.
She told me to find a rich boy to date... just so the boy can buy me things and paid when we go for a date.

At first i agreed so i dated that jerk and look what happennnn
Did not get any sweet story!!

Well.. it's my fault tho, i know him for only a month and i accepted him (which is so fckin stupid)
I always said that i want a boy who want to fight for me. Like, even if i'm rude to him and kinda ignore him, he would still go after me. Bcs that's how i know that (what i believe) he truly love me.

Just for money... i'm willing to date him after getting to know him only a month and BOiIiI i almost lost my virginity. He constantly ask to have hsjjec with me cuz that's what he did to his ex.. DISGUSTANGGG

And the point is...
I've been thinking that i should have not follow my sister's advice..

It was my first time dating a boy and i should have choose a boy who i comfortable with.. who can make my day happy.

I don't care about money, we can just go for a walk around a park or walk around a mall without buying something, at least i'm happy

Maybe i should think about money when i already work or in the middle/end of collage.

I should have had a sweet, happy love in high school that i can remember 😧

I'm really not good at relationship shit...