The Forgotten One

nightmares and Sirius talks

I woke up but I wasn't in Aunt Minnie's living quarters. I was back at my home. Three feet away from me were my parents. I saw myself sitting on my dad's lap watching him play wizard's chess, he was teaching me. This was a memory. A twisted memory thou. My dad leads the me on his lap up to bed. The scene changes. I'm out on the quidditch pitch outside are house. I'm flying around on a broom and my dad is chasing after me on his own. The scene changes again and I'm with my mom we are making cookies in the kitchen. I think there chocolate chip but I'm not sure. Before I can figure it out the scene changes again. This time I'm not with my parents but with my Uncle Newt. He is taking me to see his fantastic beasts. The next thing I know I'm helping him feed them. Then the scene changes again I'm back with my parents. Aunt Mia, uncle Monty, and James are there too. We are all heading on Potter Family vacation. The scene changes again. At this point I'm confused, usually I'm having nightmares and I knew I should stick with being happy they are all good memories from times of happiness but something is different. In each memory it looks like a black shadow is creeping more and more into them. This scene is no different from the rest. It is a happy memory, it is me and my mom having a tea party. This time almost half the memory is filled with the black shadow of before. The. The scene changes it is of my mom, Sirius, Reggie, Cissa, Trixi, Andy, and Dora. We are all at my house and we are talking and playing games. We're all smiling and enjoying the rare time we have all together before one of us had to leave. The black shadow is creeping further over the memory. I just want to wake up and escape whatever nightmare situation that is coming for me. I want to enjoy the good times. The next thing that comes is me and Dora making friendship bracelets for each other it was the same day as the last memory and everyone is still there. We somehow rope everyone into making one for the both of us. Each person had there initials on beads on them. The bracelets are from what house you are from. Mom's, Cissa's, Trixie's, Andy's, even the two we got Reggie to make for us were green and silver, the one I made for everyone was red and gold but had a charm to change to the colors of the house I would get into, Sirius's is red and gold we also roped him into making one for me and one for Dora, Dora's is yellow and black also with a charm to change to the colors of her house when she gets to Hogwarts after they are on mom puts a spell on all of them so that they never fall off any of are wrists and can never be damaged. Me and Dora had one from everyone and everyone else only had one from Dora and I. My dad later saw the braclets and he makes one for me because he says there is too much Slytherin representation. The memory changes again. This time it is too my mom telling me about the fact that we are going to Paris. I knew what was coming up next, next I would see my parents or someone I love be killed. But it doesn't come, it launched into another memory. This time it was summer before the boys went into their sixth year. They were all over, James saw the bracelets on my right arm and demanded I taught them how to make them so Sirius didn't have something over them. So I wound up with five new red and gold friendship bracelets on my right arm one from James, Remus, Peter, Fabian, and Gideon all with there initials on beads and with the same spells as before. The darkness is almost completely over the memory and is creeping into creating complete darkness. The scene changes again, this time I'm with Aunt Minnie and Uncle Mad Eye, they had come over to have dinner on a rare occasion were uncle Mad Eye had off. We were all eating around the table. My parents had to go to something so we all eat dinner and then they went off leaving we to spend time with my godparents. I wind up getting two more bracelets one green and silver and one red and gold. The darkness completely covered the memory now. I was left in complete darkness. I was all alone. No one there. No one around. Trapped in the depth of my mind with no one around. But that wasn't what was going on. I was living a fear. I was left alone. With no one left. I lost everyone I love and was left alone. But the scene changes again. I wasn't left alone, I was launched into the memory of the night my parents died. But I pick up more things then when it happened or the other times I relived that living nightmare. I hear a laugh, a cold shrill laugh, that shakes me to the bone. That makes me even more scared the before. Then nothing, submerged back into the darkness but this time it wasn't a dream. I bolted up in my bed panicking. The darkness was the fact it was 3 am and it was still dark out. Waking up from a nightmare always shakes me. So I get up and head out of my bedroom. Then out the portrait and into the halls of Hogwarts. Knowing my way around the castle helps. I made my way to the kitchen to get some hot chocolate. I knew I couldn't fall asleep so at least it would give me some time to get the nightmare out of my head. When I got there I tickled the pear and went in. Poppy came up to me and asked what I wanted. I replied that I would like a hot chocolate please and she went to go get it.

"What are you doing here Bella shouldn't you be in bed sleeping." That's when I realized there was another human being in there. Thankfully the person in there was someone I knew and who wouldn't tell Aunt Minnie were I was.

"The real question is what are you doing here Siri. It's past curfew."

"I asked first."

"I had a nightmare."

"Same." I went to go where he was sitting at one of the tables near the back of the tables. Poppy came a little while later with hot chocolate for both of us. "Do you want to talk about it?"

"No, what about you?"

"I'd rather not talk about it"

"Siri, have you ever thought what life would be like if you made one choice instead of another?"

"Like looking back and wanting to change the outcome"

"Ya"

"For certain things. Like how your mom offered to take me in. So I could be away from home. She offered it to everyone. I said no so that I can watch over Reggie. If I said yes to her back then, then we would have lived together. I would never have been hurt by my parents. But then who knows what would have happened to Reggie. Or if all of us said yes it might not just be your parents who died. But that's not what you're asking about. Bella, there is nothing you could have changed that could have kept your parents from dying."

"I know, can I tell you a secret."

"Of course I won't tell anyone."

"Even James."

"Yes even James"

"Mom was pregnant. When she died. She was three months along with my little brother." With that out there things between me and Sirius fell silent. The silence showed an understanding of why that night seemed so much worse than before. It wasn't just the loss of two family members but an innocent baby who never even got the chance to live before its life was taken from it. Some time went by before Sirius spoke again. This time he tried to lighten the mood and he did. But the conversation we had was still in my head. I guess because I heard Sirius be serious for the first ever but also because of the things he said. Sometimes you wonder what life we would be like if you go back and change an event but in the end, you can't blame yourself. Sirius and I stayed up talking a little longer before the house-elves kicked us out to go back to bed. Sirius walked me to Aunt Minnie's office before going back to his room. After he left I went to the portrait said the password and went in, went back to my bed and went back to sleep.