When They Fell

Chapter 3: Ouch

Authors Note:

Okay so I've made a TON of changes to this story because it was pretty sucky at first but it's better now. Btw I'm sorry it took me so long to update I've been on vacation and I couldn't think of anything to put in this story. But yeah enjoy:)

'Why does this have to happen? Why? What did I do to deserve any of this?' I think to myself in the car. I believe Carmen could tell I was upset because she put her hand on mine.

"It's alright honey. Everything's going to be alright." She said while rubbing her thumb gently on the top of my hand.

"No it's not!" I scream back "Can't you tell that my life is fucked up!!" tears drift down my cheeks and she sighs.

"Alright well there's no telling what's gonna happen but you can't hope for the worse." Carmen wipes the tears off and turns on the radio.

"Head in the clouds got no weight on my SHOULDERS. I should be wiser and realize that I'VE GOT!!!!" I chuckle at her terrible singing.

"Wow you're really bad. Why are you listening to this old music anyways?" This song came out in 2014 and it's 2022. But I didn't tell her that I was listening to Drunk In Love on the way up here.

"Yay you smiled!" she exclaims. I did smile but I still wasn't happy. "Okay I have to ask you something very important."

"Oh god, what?" I reply my voice shaking.

"How big?" What in the world is she talking about? I just stare at her with a blank expression on my face. "Oh god. Don't make me say it!" She laughs. "How big was Liam?"

"Oh my God I can't believe you're asking this!" I put my hand on my head and giggle. "Well, when they said 10 inch pain they weren't lying."

Carmen laughed and pulled into her driveway. "We'll I'm proud of you." she said and I turned to face her, confused. "You waited until you found someone you love. There's no denying that you love Liam."

I got out of the car and got my bags out of the backseat. "Can you tell me where I'm sleeping? I'm probably just gonna shower and then go to bed."

"Yeah. Yeah. You're staying in the guest house but you'll have to shower in here because the water doesn't work there."

"Okay." I replied and headed down to the small house behind Carmen's.

"Wait." she said and tossed me the key. I smiled and unlocked the door. This house is nicer than Carmen's. I walked into the master bedroom, sat my stuff down on the bed, and cried. I am actually glad I was in a separate house because she probably would've heard me.

I got my clothes out for the shower and headed to the other house. I really didn't want to talk to anyone but I was filthy. I set my stuff down and got in the shower. Making sure to lock the door behind me.

All that I did was wash my hair and cry. I couldn't concentrate. My life had been so fucked up and me and Liam was one of the only things good that has happened to me in a really long time.

I turned off the water and quickly got dressed. I ran to the guest house because I had a feeling that I was about to explode. I slammed the door behind me and started crying.

"Why?!?" I screamed and grabbed a small box out of my bag. It was full of blades and I was sure as hell glad I brought them with me. While picking one up I just stared at it. I took it and carved 16 straight lines in a row on my left arm. Then I carved just that many into my right arm.

"I'm falling into nothingness." I whispered and carved more sharp lines into my legs. I went too deep and my legs were bleeding like crazy.

"Why are you doing this?" I looked up and Liam was standing in the doorway.