SWEET CHOCOLATE ▶ 티알씨엔지 Kim Kangmin

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I sighed, waiting for my soon to be husband, Lee Felix at Starbucks. I came here 10 minutes early as usual, just because I need to have my own space before meeting up with him, more like dating.

I'm happy that I could get married with someone whom I like. I can't wait to wear in a beautiful wedding dress, to walk on the aisle, then... I'm not sure this is okay or not. I mean, I think I've messed my own relationship with Felix because I was with kangmin last night. And it was my fault to ask him being with me.

The reason why I didn't asked Felix out was he was having his friend's "birthday party". And I was like "as if". Huh, what if he is cheating on me? What if he only likes me to gain popularity? I'm not that popular though.

And so, I looked up into Felix daily lives in Australia. He have always hung out with this lady. Haha, cheater. But! I won't jump into conclusion. I better find out by myself.
I'm still waiting for him here, aside that, I looked up into Sweet Bakery's website, because the fact that it's pastries are the sweetest which are my absolute taste! I know that kangmin worked as a baker, maybe he made those delicious pastries, and I really wish he would baked some more of green tea flavour. Pout...

Wait, I can actually ask him to do a few of my green tea ideas.

The reason I'm falling in love with him again? Well, not just his appearance. His personality. The way he talked; he willingly to keep our conversations going even though they were nonsense. He is helpful; I remember when he helped me out to reach some ingredients at the grocery store and that actually made me feel cared. He is a caring person; he was there with me like last night incident. He saw me crying while I was in thoughts. He actually cleared up my dark thinking away, he was like my flashlight that gave me light towards my blurry path.

"Haerin, are you there? " felix is here.

"Hmm? O-oh, did you say something? I'm sorry, I was daydreaming, " as I rubbed my left eye. It got dusty, alright?

"No, I didn't. Are you okay? Did you eat yet? " his face looked concerned.

"I'm okay and I didn't ate anything yet. What you brought there? " I saw he was holding a box.

"You'll see. Wait for a second, " he opened up the box, revealed a chocolate cake and a note, "happy 3rd year anniversary, haerin, " I blushed pink, my heartbeat suddenly sped up at it's own pace. We never celebrated our anniversary and today he did it.

"Y-you too, Felix, "

"Omg, don't cry. Oww, my baby is crying? " he brought himself closer to me, placed his palm onto my right cheek and wiped the tears, "I'm sorry that I didn't give you any special surprises lately, " he then kissed my cheek.

"Y-you don't have to, really. I love you, Felix, " I turned up to look at him. He had his fairy-like smile on, I don't know that's a fake or not.

"I love you too, haerin, " he confessed in his Australian accent, "don't leave me, my love, "

"Never, "

And again, I don't know who to choose.

김강민

I'm still outside of the bakery, now walking down to the city and started to refresh my mind. I was this close not to bring along my phone and my wallet around. Or else, I look like a stray kid.

I tend to get something at the convenient store, but I saw these two familiar backs. Felix and Haerin.

They really did date today. Actually that broke my heart. Then, what about last night's? Just a friendly date? Oh wait, we are friends. Huh. Why did I brought myself up? I'm so dumb.

♨♨♨

"Where did you go? " jihun asked. I was sitting on the couch, eating my favourite snack that I bought from the store while watching a drama.

"City, "

"Why? "

"To refresh my mind, " I casually answered.

"Fine. You can always talked to me if you have a problem. I'm here to hear your problem, kangmin. Please note that. I don't want the members have their own problems that are unspoken, " hyung explained.

"I noted, hyung. Thanks, " I smiled.

"Your welcome. And don't eat too much junk food, " he warned.

"Okay, hyung, " I sighed when he left me.

"You look unfine, "

"Is that a word? " I complained to hohyeon, "ah, right. You have a family dinner, " I saw he was in his black suit, had a red tie and a neat hairstyle. I bet siwoo did that.

"Yes. I'll be back before 12, "

"Why would you tell me that? I know you won't be late, "

"I'm worried if you get a nightmare later on, "

"I'm an adult, hyung!  "

"Ahaha!! I'm sorry. Well, I'll see you later, " as he opened the door, then closed it. I heard a car honk from outside, guess it was one of his family member.

I went bored like after a minute hohyeon went to somewhere place. Walking to my room, closed the door and I jumped into my bed. Immediately took out my phone from my pocket, read some recent feeds. And of course, there was haerin's.

The picture was a selca of Felix and herself in a park, had trees and fairy lights behind them. I looked through her pictures with Felix, and I don't know why I feel wanna cry.

Was all we did just a fluke? Didn't my affections towards never that obvious? I've showed my love to her, guess that she can't see it. Because she have Felix now. Why did I really tried to get her to be mine although she have Felix? Why did I need her?

What was my real reason to love her?