the night we met.

leaving

4.00 a.m. in my room - packing and getting ready

beep beep beep.
i'm exhausted. i only slept for 5 hours.
i rolled out of the bed and put on my sandals, picked an outfit, brush my teeth and do other normal things we all do.

i looked into the mirror, i saw a girl with a broken heart. i then remembered that last night i just ended my 2 years relationship with this guy.

"Hey Quen, I just really need to say something."

"What do you want to say hun?"

"I just feel like we need to stop here."

"Stop what?"

"We. Us."
i started to stumble upon my words and a tear rolled down my cheeks.

"But why? What did i do wrong?"

"Don't you pretend. I saw you, I saw you with her kissing at the bar."

"What?"

"Just goodbye."

i ended the facetime and i started to cry loudly.
thank god, nobody woke up.

My dear Quentin,
I need to tell you something really important. I'm moving out!!!! I know right it's crazy!!! And guess where I'm moving... I'm moving to CALIFORNIA WOOHOOOOOO. I'm transfering to your school tooo, Southwood High!!! I'm so mf excited!

my heart ached as i read that, i'm so dumb. the message was sent 3 weeks ago before i knew he was cheating.

this is a bad idea. a bad start.

i straightened my hair and started to do my makeup. i packed a lot of concealer oof. i then put on my outfit, take my stuff and put it inside my suitcase.

"i'm leaving mom"

"goodbye sweetie, be careful. don't forget to text me when you arrive at uncle charlie's house okay."

"yeah thanks mom, i love you."

i took the cab and in 20 mins, i arrived at the airport.

shit.

the plane was about to leave 10 mins as i was checking in.

i ran as fast as i could and bumped to this tall, familiar muscular dude.
"ALEX?"
"Daisy? right?"
"What are you doing here?"
"I visited my girlfriend, she lives here and i am about to go back home now."
"oh, didn't know you have a girlfriend. i'm also going to your home i guess.."
"oh yes, you must be the daisy that my step father talks about, you're going to stay with us right?"
"yeah. i really need to hurry my flight is leaving in no time."
"mine's too then"

i ran as fast as i could, with alex behind me. i finally arrived on time and didn't miss the flight. thank God.

i sat across alex and i could see him trying to fall asleep. i then looked out the window.

i'm so small.

goodbye connecticut, my sweet little town. goodbye mama, i'll be safe.
i then remembered about quentin, i started hating myself for thinking it was the right decision to break up with him the night before i'm going to see him.

i remembered i also have 2 weeks till school actually start. i have time to settle down i guess.

i started closing my eyes.
it's dark and i love it.