Is this loss* *a book about me

So sick

Hello.

My parents are divorced.

When I'm at my mom's apartment it's always the same.

It has this sick aura in the whole apartment. That makes me feel urghhhh, I can't explain it but it's really not a nice feeling. 

It's not like this in my dad's apartment.

My mom always wants to keep our house clean and tidy, that's really exhausting, I don't feel at home when it always has to be clean and tidy. So this feeling probably can't be because we doesn't clean our house. I don't know why...

In my dad's apartment its hard to keep it clean and tidy all the time, I mean we live 7 people (soon it will be 6 because my brother will move out) in a house with 3 bedrooms and 1 living room (my dad and stepmom are sleeping in the living room, me and 2 of my sisters are sleeping in one room and my brother and older sister has their own room) we also have 4 cats, one of them is a persian and always leave hair balls and throws up everywhere. We also have stuff everywhere, I'm barely in my room anymore because I think it's really disgusting in there, and when my older sister is not home I always sleep in her room.

But still, it feels more welcoming and nice at my dad's apartment.

So this was just a chapter about how i felt at my homes, and it may be a bit boring to read but it was also a but more information about me. 

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