Only for a minute(A Beau Brooks Fanfiction)

Chapter 13

James and Daniel just arrived. James girlfriend couldn't come and daniel doesn't have one so they just came alone. Gina brought us over some alcohol so we could play never have I ever so now we are sitting in a circle on our living room floor pouring vodka in our cups... Vodka? Really? I thought.. Knowing how much these people have done I'm gonna be drunk in no time, I think as a pour a cup for me and pass it to beau.

"The trick is to take small sips but swallow hard so you don't get drunk as quick" beau whispers in my ear and kisses my cheek.

"So are we ready" Hanna asks. We all nod and give our yes's.

"Okay so here's how it goes I'll give an example, say someone says never have I ever given a blow job, and if you haven't you take a drink, Got it?"

"Wait isn't it the other way around?" Jade asks Hanna.

"Not how we play" Hanna says and winks at Jade. Okay James starting and he says..

"Never have I ever had sex"

I take a drink... I'm the only one to take a drink.. And everyone just stares..

"Auden you only drink if you haven't" says luke.

"I know.." I say shyly.

"Holy shit your a Virgin" says Hanna.

"Told you..." Jade teases.

"Guys stop" beau says with a smile.

"Beau admit it you were as shocked as the rest of us " says jai.

"Okay okay let's move on" beau laughs.

Next it's daniel..

"Never have I ever done more than make out"

They all look at me... And I take a drink..they all just stare at me.. Even beau...

"beau you need to do some shit with her" laughs daniel. And everyone else laughs. Except me. I just smile to make it look like I'm not hurt at the fact that they make fun of the fact no one was ever interested in doing more than kissing me. It's not that I didn't want to. Guys just weren't into me at home because I wasn't popular.

"Hey I'm going to the bathroom" I say and get up and walk to my bathroom. I stare in the mirror at my round face, my face isn't chubby just the head shape is round. I look at my high cheek bones, my bright blue eyes, my brown hair, and my lightly tanned skin. I burst into tears and sit on the floor and pull my knees up to my chest and cry. None of them understand what it was like for me back home. None of them understand that people were constantly mean to me and I had trust issues because of my dad, none of them know anything except Jade. I start to whisper to myself "your beautiful AUDEN your beautiful they were just mean to you and you didn't deserve it, I'm beautiful I'm beautiful I'm beautiful" and I break down Into tears again. Then the door creaks open and it's Hanna.

"Auden are you alright?" She kneels down beside me and hugs me.

"Is it because we were joking about you being a virgin I'm sorry I didn't mean to upset you" she says very worriedly.

In a shaky voice I say

"No it's something none of you understand" and I burst into sobs again. I can't keep it in and I'm trying really hard but I can't because it keep thinking of how bad it was at home.

"Only Jade knows" I manage to say.

"Okay I'll be only a minute darling"she says.

Hanna and Jade walk into the bathroom and close the door but left the bedroom one open.

Hanna sits on the edge of the bathtub and Jade sits beside me and holds me.

"Auden talk to me" she says.

"None of them know" I sob.

"I wanted boyfriends I wanted to have sex I wanted all of it but none of them wanted me, everyone was just so mean to me and I wanted more than anything to fit in, have a boyfriend, go to school dances without being harassed, I wanted it all but no one liked me" I continued and cried into jades shoulder.

"Aw Auden I know it was hard but that's why we came out here for a new beginning without all the pain, Auden you have friends here who love you and care please try to forget" Jade says. Hanna grabs my hand

"Auden you didn't deserve it at all but I am here for you too whenever you need me" she smiled.

I finally am calmed down and not crying anymore so I look in the mirror. I'm a mess. My eyes are red and puffy and my mascara is running down my cheek.

I turn around and say

"Thanks guys you helped a lot but you guys can go back out I'm just gonna clean myself up and I'll be right out" I managed to smile.

"Okay but if your not out in ten we will drag you out by your hair" Jade hugged me and they both went back out. I left the bathroom door open this time so I can hear anything.

I got a makeup wipe and wiped off all my makeup. I reapplied think eyeliner on top and my mascara. My eyes are finally not red anymore and I look normal. My stomach is still in knots though. I walk back out there and grab a water from the fridge. Everyone went silent.

"What is there something on me?" I ask and look down at me. I mean I look fine, I made sure my eyes aren't red anymore and I know my makeup a fine.

"No... Are you alright?" Luke asks.

"Um ya why" I say and my stomach feels sick.

"Your walls aren't sound proof, we heard you crying, we heard you guys talking in there too but we don't know what you were saying" luke says.

"Ya I'm fine" I say and look down at my nails and pretend I'm picking at them

"You sure?" Jai asks

"Ya" I say in a much quieter and shakier voice then I intended.

"I'm going out for some air" I say in a shaky voice and go out the back doors to the patio, making sure I don't look at any of them on my way out. I sit up against the wooden fence in the grass, pull my knees to my chest and put my head down. I'm not gonna cry this time I keeping telling myself and I keep taking deep breaths to try and control myself.