The World of US

Chapter 19: The fight pt. 2

 Jimin is quiet for a minute before answering, "I know i can trust you with anything, i really do. But with something like this... i was worried that it would slip out accidentally, that you might forget or something and... i know i can trust you and i know you wouldnt mean to but you can be pretty impulsive and carefree and sometimes forgetful and i just couldnt risk it." Jimin seems surprised at his own words, as if he didnt even realize he felt that way. "im so sorry tae"  

Tae's anger has full on disappeared and all that remains is pure sadness and hurt. A few tears fall but he aggressively wipes them away. "Two of the people i loved the most have been keeping things from me and lying to me and apparently thinking that i would out them accidentally even though i know how horrible it would be. I may seem too carefree and hyper sometimes but as my best friend i thought you of all people would know that i like to enjoy my life and live it as best i can but that does not mean i would hurt someone else like that. No matter how carefree i am... i still care, i still know what to say and what not to say. Im not clueless. Or stupid. Despite what other people might think. You of all people should know that. Then again, i guess we arent actually best friends so maybe you wouldnt know that. My bad."

I look to the crying Jimin beside me before looking at a helpless jungkook then back again at a very hurt Taehyung.

This is much worse than i thought. I didnt realise how much this was going to hurt Taehyung. Theres so many other factors contributing to the hurt Tae is feeling that i didnt even consider.

Jungkook reaches out to Tae but is brushed off immediately, "I need some space."

He turns to walk away but pauses to look at me first, "yoongi hyung, please dont tell the other hyungs about this they will try to talk to me and jin will try to cheer me up and i just cant deal with it right now. please dont tell them. not yet. give me time to myself- please."

"actually, thats kind of what we told Jungkook to do. Not tell you about jimin and i so that jimin could tell you himself first. We asked him to give us some time. So maybe, go a little easy on him. He didnt want to out someone without their permission." i say this calmly while looking Taehyung right in the eyes to make sure he was paying attention.

He looks over to Jungkook, his expression softening but it hardens again and he looks back to me, "only difference is that jungkook is my boyfriend. Boyfriends are suppose to be honest and not keep secrets."

"the other members are family, family is also suppose to not keep secrets and yet  we all have at some point for our own reasons."

"I dont know what family you come from yoongi hyung but mine keep secrets, parents have things they dont tell their children, children have things they dont tell their parents, same for siblings. Its bestfriends, its significant others that you count on to be honest with you, to not lie to you."

"Family is not just defined by parents and siblings, family involves love and our members love eachother. It may be a different kind of love than you and jungkook have but its still love. when you love someone you can become even more afraid to tell them something, people keep secrets for many reasons. No matter how much this is hurting you right now, i just want you to know that family based on love is strong and will overcome any setbacks. So i will give you time and i will keep this between us for now but know that what you are asking of me is to keep something from those we love because its what you need right now. So as i said before, we all keep secrets for however long we need to for our own reasons. Just keep that in mind okay?"

He nods silently before leaving the room.

I hope i got through to him. He has a right to be upset but he also needs to understand that there is more to it. That his perspective is not the only one. 

"What was i suppose to do? Tell him and have you two hate me or not tell him and now have him hate me? There was never a good choice for me. Either way i lose someone. How is that fair?" Jungkook says quietly with tear filled eyes.

"Its not fair." i say. 

He sniffs and shakes his head, "why did i have to say something, i should have just pretended i didnt know."

"What about when he found out about it? It would have been worse i would think."

"i dont want to lose him, i cant."

"you wont, he just needs time, he will come around."

Jungkook nods softly before walking to his own room. 

I then look to Jimin with concerned eyes, "jiminie.... that goes for you too, he will come around."

He sniffs and wipes his hand on his tear stained face, "i messed up. I really messed up." He falls into my arms sobbing.

I wrap my arms around his shaking figure and run my hand through his hair gently to comfort him. "its going to be okay, your going to be okay." i repeat softly. 

I lose track of time as we sit here huddled together, jimin crying and me comforting him as best i can while kissing his head every once in a while. 

The front door then opens revealing Namjoon, Jin and hobbie slightly drunk but sober enough to understand not to ask any questions. They send a concerned look our way before heading to their rooms. 

I tighten my grip around Jimin and close my eyes letting us stay like this until we both fall asleep.

I love you park jimin, i will always be here for you. No matter what. 

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Thanks for reading! Apparently i didnt post the rest of what i wrote so i had to reupload! sorry about that!

so first week of school is finally done! I already have tons of homework, oh the joys of university.

Hope you guys are doing good! Have you watched the new vlive's of joon, jin, jungkook and jimin? i didnt get any of their notifications ??? i missed all of them, i mean i was sleeping during them anyways but still, why am i not getting them???  

The BTS concert that im going to is in two weekks!!!! ahhhhh im so hyped! Are you guys going to one? If so when is it??