To You From Me

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When I walk down my memory lane trying to trace back why I love you in the first place, I found no finite answer. Weird, how love can just exist between two strange souls and disappear the next time we looking. After some time, they come back again knocking this soul really hard and bruised it well when they leave.

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From a small meaningless conversation to intense glance stealing competition, we became secret lovers. But, we can't hide it good enough in front some of our friends because to be honest, you really suck at it. I'm sorry, me too. Look, your hands were unconsciously shaking whenever you hand me papers and stuff, uncontrollable desire to come near to me when I smile at you and you words. They are not in the right arrangement. Sounds really silly and funny especially with your humorous nature, I can't help but burst into an idiot clown too. Laughing like crazy because we share too many jokes that only we understand it.

You only need to give me a short quick glance and I understand straight away what were you thinking. And in that serious meeting or classes we attended, we suffered holding our laugh from bursting out loud. And I, I turned into a complete idiot whenever you were near. Purposely joking around out loud with our friends in one of those classes we had in the past just to get your attention. Sometimes you chose to leave the venue and it always kill my excitement but later you told me, you were just jealous of seeing me laughing with some other guys in your presence.

But, you will never have the courage to come at me in the public and so do I. We just don't want them to know that 'us' exist and till the last day of school years, we kept it as secret and riddle to our friends. Few of your friends were really good at solving riddle and they able to smell our secret like a dog, they just want to use it to tease you. Luckily, we were good at lying and covering, they finally lose interest in knowing further about it. And we stick to each other for some more time afterwards.

Tonight is pretty chilly as I lay wide awake on my bed, holding my phone firmly and listening to random songs using my earphone while thinking about our past again. Maybe I can't sleep because the coffee I drank or sufficient sleep I had from my midday nap. I think it is both.

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