Dark Paradise [Z. Malik // fanfic]

07. Taste of death

Reina's POV

It has only been a few hours since I left Zayn and Harry's house and I was currently laying in the bathtub, doing absoloutely nothing than reevaluating my shitty life.

The voices of guiltness wouldn't shut up and I needed to make them stop. The empty bottle of Jack Daniels in my hand was the evidence of my downgrade . My vision was blurred from all the tears I've cried and my head was spinning due to the alcohol that was running my veins.

I couldn't stop this.

I didn't know how to stop this.

In my whole life I knew that the only way to forget about who you are for a couple of hours was either sleep or drink. And at this point, when my sleep was full of nightmares, drink was the only option available. I didn't say I was proud of my self. I never was. I could've been something better in my life. I could've never ran away from orphanage. I could've been a college student by now and have parents who would love me and care about me. But hell, I was a cheap skunk who sold her body in order to pay some bills. I've lost my self respect and now this! I made a deal with a gang leader to destroy someone's life! And I'm bringing Harry down with me! He has done nothing but to be a great guy and showing me love and respect. Something that was never given to me.

I hate my self to the point I could die and not give a damn about it! My life was empty. I couldn't even find my mother or my brother. She left me but I'm sure she had a reason to do this. Maybe I was nothing but trouble. I've always been. And what about my brother? He might be in worst situation than me. He might be even dead.

I have to face it tho! I'm alone. I have noone to care about me and noone to care about. What if I die? Could have this been the only way to forget about anything and everyone forever?

I saw my reflection to the foggy mirror that was hanging across of me. My eyes were red and swollen. I was always jealous of people who had a sparkle in their eyes. A hint of life. I've hit the bottom and I know there's no way back.

I let out a dry chuckle and I let my head fall to the back. It was now or never. Just some pure water filling your lungs and you'll be in a better place.I threw the glass bottle to the floor and watched it scattering into pieces. I closed my eyes and drowned my bare body to the foggy water. My life was passing in front of my eyes and I knew it was time. A better place was waiting for me!

My salvation had come.

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My heavy eyes slowly opened and a bright light was blinding me. I shut my eyes once again and I couldn't help but wonder; this is what is like when you're dead? Bright lights blinding you? Well that's not cool.

"Reina?" I heard a voice calling my name.

So now what? My guardian angel was calling for me?

"Reina? Are you awake, baby?"

He was calling me 'baby'? Wait I know that voice. It was...

"Harry?" I chocked out.

"Thank God, Reina! You're alive! I was so worried!" Harry wrapped his arms around my body.

"Where am I?"

"Safe and alive at your comfy bed." Harry replied.

"So I'm not dead?" I opened my eyes.

"Thanks to me, no!" He smiled sweetly.

"What happened? I should have been dead by now! Why you saved me, Harry?" I snapped sitting up.