Rose Red || Seo Changbin

08 • Hannah's advice

♡He was a sk8er boi she said see ya later boi-♡

I'm sorry but that's the first thing I thought of when I saw this-

He's cute af though ♡ smiley boy

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I stared at him with my mouth gaping open for about an entire minute, probably looking pretty silly while doing so. I couldn't wrap my head around what he had said to me. Is this some sort of cruel joke? He can't be serious, can he?

“I'm sorry but...what did you say?”

He smiled weakly, probably thinking I wasn't interested in his offer. If this was a joke, he wasn't letting on. “I'm offering you to come to Korea with us. You wanted to go, didn't you?”

“As your make-up artist?”

“You said you won't get into your college course. And, apparently, you said that you don't even want to do this course. Feel free to say no, but we'd love to have you with us.”

I looked away from him, trying to think clearly about what he was offering me. I felt some sort of excitement, genuine excitement, bubble up inside of me at the idea.

He was right, I didn't want to go to these courses at all and I knew I wouldn't get into a good one anyway. Music was my passion, so travelling with musicians sounded awesome. Plus, it'd be in Korea somewhere I always wanted to visit. If I didn't go now, it'd take me years to save up for it.

I weighted up my two choices and felt myself lean entirely to the option of being a maid. Which, or course, my Father wouldn't agree to.

I could let my Father send me to whatever course he wanted me into, spend a decade doing that and probably being unhappy, go into a job I didn't like, and then knows what. Or, I could go with them, learn Korean better and write songs. I could give my passion a real shot.

What my parents wanted or what I wanted. I knew the sensible option was what they wanted but it wouldn't make me happy, I knew it wouldn't. This would, even if it had a higher chance of blowing up in my face.

Everything in me said to say yes, but it seemed like the irresponsible option.

I picked up my hot chocolate, taking a massive gulp of it and finding that he was right. It was good. I sighed and tried to really think, this was such a big commitment.

But it felt like my heart had already decided that this is what I should do. I could picture how fun and exciting it would be. This isn't the feeling I got whenever I imagined doing the course my Father wanted me to do and I never would.

It was nice to feel some sort of passion, some emotion other than dread towards my own future. That realising alone hit me hard. Did I want to dread my future? Of course not but I was so scared to mess my life up.

The logical part of my brain was going mad and calling me an idiot. If I did this, what would come of it? I couldn't decide if I should follow my heart or my brain.

“I want to say yes,” I finally admitted. My voice was quiet and slow, Felix clearly picked up on it.

“You can take some time to think about it, of course. It is a really big decision and I wouldn't want you making the wrong choice. Don't feel too much pressure. It's okay if you don't want to come with us.”

“Thank you.”

He took one of my hands in his and met my eyes. He gave me a small, genuine smile and spoke again. “I know how you feel, Rose. My parents didn't want me to go to Korea but I did anyway. I won't lie though, it was pretty scary and it sometimes still is. But I'm so happy I did it.”