Hey guys welcome to my fanfic! ^.^
I just wanna warn you this fanfic is PG-13 and somewhat R 😏
There will be self harm, sexual content, other things like that.
Please be able to handle some of the things before you read. Please don't hate on me for adding things like that in the story. Sorry but this kind of thing happens in real life and I don't like it either 😔
The first chapter is kinda boring but it's building up the story. This is my first story so please don't judge my grammar, spelling, or if this story just sucks xD
Enjoy 💙
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"Worthless! Worthless! Worthless!" I repeated under my breath. I was freaking out again. I was sitting on my sink with my razor in my hand. I had been a month clean but I couldn't take it anymore. Everything was adding up and I needed to cut so badly. So here I am, slicing up my wrist yet again.
*Present*
"Uhh" I grunted a little as I dropped my razor. "I'm a fucking mess" I hissed and got off the counter. I picked it up and looked at myself in the mirror.
My mascara was smeared all over my face and my hair was nappy and frizzy. I had brown hair and hazel / brown eyes. My eyes would change colors like that. My eyes were chocolate brown right now though.
I sighed and looked down. "I wanna die" I whispered low. " I want the pain to stop. I want to be skinny. I want to be pretty. I want to be happy. I want h-" I got cut off as someone opened the door.
Fuck! I forgot the lock it. My mom came in and I quickly ran and slammed the door. "Oh my God! I'm so sorry Maddy!" Yeah, my names Madison but everyone calls me Maddy. I cleared my throat. "It's okay mom"
I faked smiled even though she couldn't see me. "Are you gonna be ready to leave in an hour?" Ugh! I forgot about going to Atlanta. "Yeah mom!" I lied and quickly turned on the shower.
I took off my clothes and hopped in. It was a little hot so I quickly turned on the cold. Now it was to cold. I couldn't do anything right! I started to cry again. 'Stuck it up' I told myself and finished washing my hair, shaving, and then washing my body.
When I was done I got out and warped a towel around my body. Another one on my head. I hid my razor and ran to my room. When I got there I didn't have to worry because I had packed the night before.
I grabbed dark blue skinny jeans and my tank top of the American flag. I got on ankle socks and put on my gray combat boots. After that I put on some walking dead, PTV, BMTH, and a few other bracelets.
I took off the towel that was on my head and turned on my hair dryer. When it was dried I flat ironed my hair and pulled back my bangs so I could do my makeup. I put on concealer, powder, eyeliner which I also did wings, mascara and some chap stick. I didn't wear that much.
I checked my phone but no texts. Figures.
I grabbed my suitcase, it had four wheels and had a pretty grayish color. I put my phone in my back pocket and walked to the door.
"Anytime mom!" I yelled and she came out. "We'll I've been waiting for you! Let's go already!" She opened the door and we were on our way.
*Just landed in Atlanta*
We had just landed and already gotten our bags. My moms new boyfriend was waiting for us.
My dad left when I was a kid and I don't really like a lot of men ever since but Henry, her new boyfriend was pretty cool. He smiled and hugged my mom then me and we walked to his car.
He put our bags into his trunk and my mom got up front and I sat in the back. Henry had came up here a week early so he could get an apartment to rent for a month as we look for a new house.
We thought it would be better to leave that town behind because none of us really felt like we 'belonged' there. My mom wants the perfect place so were gonna see how everything is and where a good place would be.
Henry and my mom started going on about something and I just looked out the window. It really is pretty here. I slowly started to drift asleep.
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I woke up to Henry rubbing my shoulder. I got up and yawned stretching out my arms.
"Hey kiddo" he smiled and I smiled back still waking up. I looked around and saw no apartments. "Where are we?" I ask noticing it was a neighborhood.
"Surprise!" My mom came up and I was totally confused. "Oh!" She realized my questioning. "We already decided on the house!"
She said excited. This was my mom all right. Coming up with this huge plan and just changing it. I mean if she was happy about it I was gonna be happy about it too.
I smiled and nodded. I got out of the car and finally saw how beautiful these houses were! "Maddy?" My mom asked and I turned around.
My mom and Henry were holding hands and smiling a little nervously. "Yeah?" I asked. "Umm.. Henry and I.. Were getting married."
She smiled and looked at him. I loved how happy my mom looked. "That's amazing!" I smiled too and hugged her.
"Congrats mom!" I could tell she was smiling and I pulled away and looked at Henry. "So you don't mind?" He asked. "Not a lot! This is so cool!" He smiled and gestured to the house.
"This is gonna be our new home."
