Why do I forgive so easy? Maybe that means I love him or maybe I'm just stupid. He's a damn mess and I love every bit of that mess.
I go on through the rest of the day almost ok; then I get the image of him and her together and I want to vomit. They slept together. Miah and Ariel had sex. WHILE WE WERE STILL TOGETHER! What the actual fuck. And I forgave him so easily. I love him too much to go through all that pain again, or to put him through it all again. It's done and passed but it still stings.
I'm sitting in my last class now, English Literature. It's my favorite class and I can't even focus. The bell rings. I grab my bag and head for the practice field where I know Miah is right about now starting his evening workouts with the team. I sit there on the bleachers watching him and trying to read a book for homework, but all I can do is watch him. I've sat in this same spot many times before watching him while I wait or do homework. He's my best friend (other than karmen ) ; but he's hurt me so bad I don't know how to handle the pain he's caused the doubt filling my mind. I love him so much I don't want to lose him again. It would tear me apart. I would physically die. Or I would want to.
I sit here, staring.
Staring.
Waiting.
Staring.
I've been here for a long time and I've lost track of how long but I know that practice will be over soon; or maybe it's over and I'm sitting here alone but my mind is so lost in space I can't even bring it back to reality.
He cheated..... that's all I can think of right now.
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*snap-snap* " Ally??.... Ally, are you ok?"
*snap-snap* " babe!!"
I shake my head and come back to earth "huh" I say finally focusing back, there's Miah right in front of me. "Hi" he says smiling "Are you ok?"
"Yeah, I'm ok" I chuckle "Sorry lost in space"
"Okay.... ready to go home?"
"Yeah" I say putting a smile on my face.
"Good, so did you like what you saw on the field today?" He asks as he holds my hand helping me down the bleachers.
"Ummm yeah I'm not gonna lie I wasn't paying much attention."
"I figured," he chuckles " you're not all that into football."
" Yeah I just come to watch my hot boyfriend." I say with a smirk.
Authors note
Sorry it's been so long since I've updated the book. I think I'm gonna try to keep it going tho any suggestions are welcome more to come soon I hope
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The Girl He Used To Love...
RomanceI love him, and he knows it. He says he loves me, but does he mean it? *Warning may have slight foul language and mature content*
