Bitten but surviving |walking dead x reader

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I couldn't handle being here. It made me feel weak, frightened. I shouldn't be showing the group I'm scared. They should know that if I'm scared then they should be to, but that's not what's going to happen. They think it's because of civilization after being out there, fighting for my life every single day, for so long. Every little sound made me jump. Everything around me LOOKED safe and homey, but I knew it wasn't. The others were fooled, I don't know about Daryl though. He's a tough person to read, but once you get the hang of it you can read him like a book. I was now in a room where the leader of Alexandria is recording me and asking questions as I pace. "Why are you so restless?" She asked. I stopped in my tracks and looked to the left of me to where she sat in a chair. "It's not safe here, nothing scares me, not death, not walkers, not people, nothing, but this place, I know what's coming, I know who's coming, these people who live here, they don't know how to survive out there, these people are going to live in fear. Nothing can change that." I ended as I continued pacing. "Do you think walkers are going to get in and take over Alexandria?" She asked. "At least once or twice, but that's not what I'm worried about, he's coming, he will come, it's what he does he takes over." I explained. "Rick is your leader correct?" She asked. I nodded. "Will he be scared?" She asked. I looked at her straight in her eyes. "Everyone will be scared." I stated. With that she turned off the camera and let me leave. For some reason I was last. "Rick may I talk to you?" The woman asked. Rick nodded and walked inside and I grabbed one of my daggers and twirled it in my hands.

Ricks POV:

I walked in and sat down across from Deanna. "Do you trust (y/n)?" Deanna asked. "Of course I do, she's one of the most loyal members of the family." I said. "Maybe you should watch this video." She suggested as she handed me the camera. "Why should I?" I asked. "It might create some questions for her, she knows something and she won't tell us what." Deanna said with an almost invisible smirk. I took the camera to satisfy my curiosity. "I'll watch it tonight." I stated. She nodded and I got up to leave. "Have a good night Mr.Grimes." She said. With that I walked out. When I got to the house we were sleeping in for the night I played the video. "Everyone will be scared." (Y/n) said. With that the video ended. What does she mean? I looked over to (y/n) usually when she's sleeping she looked peaceful right now she looks restless.

(Y/n)s POV:

I heard me talking. I slowly opened my eyes to see Rick looking at something bright. He was watching the video. Rick looked over to me and I quickly closed my eyes. I heard movement and I cracked my eyes open to see Rick laying down. I waited a few minutes until I was sure he was asleep. I got up and went to the kitchen to get some water. I was leaning against the counter sipping from the glass. I heard movement behind me and I grabbed a knife from the knife block and whipped around to find Rick. "Sorry Rick..." I said as I slowly set my arm down still gripping the knife tightly. "You've been jumpy lately." Rick stated. "Oh you're just now realizing that or is it because you watched that stupid video?" I asked rudely. My knuckles turned white from how hard I was gripping the knife. Rick grabbed my hand and took the knife slowly away from me. "Look I'm sorry but I have to do what's good for the group." Rick said. "Rick, I thought you had more trust in me, you should know that if I'm scared then it's bad." I said.
I looked into Ricks confused eyes and looked away with a sigh. "If this is what you think is best then do it...just don't say I didn't warn you." I said. I then dumped the rest of the water in the sink, turned and walked away without another word.
I started walking around Alexandria. Listening. Watching. The breeze was soft, the stars were shining, the crescent moon glowing just enough to light my path. I was cautious. The group...my family...they didn't understand. Everything was going to go downhill, couldn't they see that?