Things left unsaid

Dear C

Dear C,

You had a place in my heart

I was just a child

But I knew what first love felt like

I needed you to notice me

I needed you to like me, hate me

You did

In the wrong ways and the good ways

I should've put this into words ages ago

I thought with the age and distance you would be out of my mind

But your not

Whatever we shared back then was poison

Whatever that was wasn't love

I liked it when your hurt me

It showed me that you liked me

I loved it when you stood up for me

It showed me that you loved me

It never truly happend

But I wished it had

I'm done thinking what if

Done pining over you

I pity the next girl

Hopeful and lovestruck

That ain't me no more

I know what I deserve

I'll propably still think of you

Who you are now

What you've become

Maybe one day I'll find out

Untill then

Goodbye and good luck