To The People, I Shouldn't Have Liked

A

Dear A,
I didn't realize I liked you immediately.
It was more of me realizing that I liked the idea of you and N being together at the end of 8th grade. But that of course didn't happen. There is something that I have always wanted to tell you and that is: A, you are one of my most favorite crushes of middle school experience because whenever I was having a bad day I would think of you or your smile or your laugh. Oh, your laugh I would rarely hear it but when it did I loved it every single time.

I was overjoyed when I got placed in front and across from you in math class. In Science class, my best friend sat ... I don't know how to explain it but she sat at the front of the table for you but at the beginning of her table. One time, I gave you a pencil in Science class in 8th grade. I expected you not to return it but you did and I just was like 'Keep it'

It wasn't until I started to write about N and You being a couple in my mind that I thought of your eyes and how I never knew what color they were because you usually never made eye contact and your hair. Your blonde hair is beautiful and sometimes when someone would mess it up, it still is perfect and your dedication to Soccer.

You don't know this but I used to play soccer for 4 years before my mom took me out because she couldn't pay for the equipment anymore. But let's not talk about that it's in the past. Anyways, in Social Studies I even switched seat with my best friend just so I could sit near to you. Even if it was two seats away. But I would do things just to get your attention. I don't know if it worked or not. Sometimes I think that you were looking at me even though you weren't or maybe you were and I just wasn't in time to see it.
English class! I almost forgot about my favorite class not just because you were in it but Mrs. Pickering was one of the best teachers. I still would look back at an old memory of us, I won't can't go into it.

Sometimes I would look at your Instagram posts over and over again just waiting till you posted something anything ever if it was a 'LMR' on your story.
I would look at you Bitmoji on Snapchat and just think of you. Or wait when you posted a picture on your Snap story, even if it was just a soccer ball and I would just look at it multiple times.

It may sound stupid but.....

I still think Theo is an asshole for stealing and eating my lollipop last year on the bus.

-Sincerely, me

Finished on September 16th 2018

Time: 11:37 PM