Monster || p.jm

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Jimin is now out of daily therapy, the therapist declaring that he is well enough to just have occasional visits. All of the other members are ecstatic at his recovery.

If only they knew.

The monsters in his head still haunt him. Even though he's able to interact with others perfectly fine, on the inside he's really struggling.

He's fighting a battle he knows he can't win.

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It was a fairly good morning for Jimin. He had woken up in a pleasant mood, and when he walked into the kitchen he was greeted with Seokjin's delicious breakfast of French toast with syrup and homemade strawberry jam. Seokjin had even put extra strawberry jam on his plate, knowing how much the younger loves it.

And for once, Jimin doesn't think twice about eating. He gladly eats the food, careful not to consume too much since his stomach might not be able to handle it. After finishing he walks around the table giving hugs to all the members, even a grumpy Yoongi.

Grabbing his phone and waving bye to everyone, Jimin exits their house, walking to somewhere he had been meaning to go for days.

As he walks he opens Twitter and takes a selfie, making sure to get just the right angle. He ponders what he should put as the caption, before a simple yet sweet phrase comes to mind. He types it in, adding all the correct tags and hitting post.

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BTS_official

I love you ARMY!! Never forget that! #parkjimin #BTS

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Content with his post, Jimin looks up to find he has almost reached his destination. Knowing he has one last task to do, he opens up his messaging app and taps on Namjoon's icon.

Dear Namjoonie Hyung,

I seriously love all of BTS, alright? Don't you dare ever forget that, or I'll come down from wherever I'll be and hurt you. Give all of the other members lots of hugs and comfort for me, and always be open with them about how you're feeling. I know that Yoongi Hyung also has the tendency to bottle his emotions up too, so make sure to check on him regularly along with the other members. I know that things will be really hard at first, but it'll get better so just hang in there! I don't want to dump too much on you since you're going to be really stressed out already, so I'll stop here.

I love you all so, so much! I'll always be with you in your heart, no matter what.

Love from your Jiminie.

Jimin turns off his phone and puts it in his pocket, arriving at his destination.

The bridge and pond that he has drawn so many times.

As he steps up onto the stone ledge, his drawings come to life. The boy he has imagined so many times, that boy is him.

Just like in his drawings, his arms are spread wide. Jimin leans forward slightly.

And frowns, hesitating.

In all of his drawings, the boy has never succeeded in throwing himself into the water. Jimin always had to stop for one reason or another.

And now Jimin is hesitant, even though he has a vague idea of what comes next.

The thought of the boy in the drawings' unfinished attempt almost drives Jimin off of the ledge and back to safety in the arms of his bandmates.

Almost.

But just like always, the monster invades his mind, taking over his thoughts and corrupting whatever small part of him wants to live.

So ignoring the constant buzzing of his phone in his pocket to the rhythms of his bandmates text tones, he falls off the ledge, accomplishing what his drawings had never been able to.

And Jimin's last moments at the bottom of the pond are filled with regret.