A boy You can't sweat out

But its better if you do

T//W talks about self harm stay safe bois
Monday 12:30pm
/Brendon's pov/
Ryan looks pretty good today but he thinks otherwise. I always know when he's depressed but I wait till we're alone to talk about it because he'll be mad other wise. We always leave campus to walk to subway for lunch anyway so I'll talk when we sit outside he won't mind then.

As we walk to subway Ryan hums along to some song by Green Day. I love when he hums it's nice to hear ya know? As we walk I look around there's a lot of flowers growing. Plus the trees  leaves are starting to change color this time of the year is always pretty around here.

We walk into the old subway it's decorated kinda like vintage shop and it's pretty cool. The people who work here are nice as well and I love it. Me and ry order and then go to the outdoor sitting area when we sit down I ask "ryan what's wrong today?".
"I'm fine bren" he  snapped at me "ry seriously I know when you're upset just tell me I wanna help you" he's definitely pissed now because he shakes his head at me and starts speaking.

"Listen Brendon IM FINE I don't need help i just need to sleep I was up late!" I stand up and sit at a different table to let him calm down. He looks at me sadly as if I had just been the one fucking yelling at him I was tearing up because it's just what happens when someone yells at me. Ryan walks over and sits next to me and hugs me "I'm sorry for yelling"

"Whatever" I roll my eyes and keep eating but throw away half because I'm not even hungry anymore. "Bren please I'm just really tired" he whines "obviously you're fucking angry I was just trying to help but since you don't want any it's whatever" I fucking hate being yelled at by Ryan especially.

"Brendon I'm sorry okay please I was up late because something happened and I couldn't sleep and then" he cuts himself off. Shit! I pull his arm to me and lift up the sleeves and he's got fresh cuts but he's also been really bruised lately. "I swear I'm going to fucking kill your dad and you!" He relapsed once again after two months I hate seeing him this way I really do. "Bren calm-"

"no I won't fucking calm down this isn't okay you're supposed to call me when you wanna do this it's not okay ryan I love you and I hate seeing you this way!" A tear starts to roll down Ryan's face and I feel my heart sink. "Bren—I'm so sorry I should have called and-" I hug him "it's not your fault ry please don't cry" he whispers he loves me into my ear and we hug for a while.

He pulls away and stands up "we gotta get to school come on" I nod standing up as well I grab my bag and his and we walk the short way to school. He was crying a little but had his hood covering his face up so no one else knows. As we arrive at the rather boring looking building. Everyone smiled and waved at me but I hate it because none of them are good people they aren't very nice to Ryan and definitely don't like me.

They pretend to though because my looks and singing voice they just want things from me. Its extremely stupid I mean they could just not talk to me or tell me to my face they don't like me. They could also leave poor ry alone o mean really he doesn't do anything wrong he's sweet as well. But I make sure that no one hurts him because if they do they're going to have to fight me.

That's probably why people think he's my boyfriend but I don't mind. I'd love it date ry I mean he's really nice and funny and cute so yeah. I guess I have a small crush but he doesn't like me so I shouldn't really feed into it much "you okay to go to class alone or do you want me to walk you?".

"I'm fine alone don't worry see you In 6th okay?" I nod and he puts his headphones in as he walks way. I walk to my own class and sit down I hate this class actually it's pretty  boring and the teacher is mean. But we never get homework so I guess that's pretty cool?

A//N Oof this is kinda bad sorry abt the self harm stuff but there's gunna be more TW later