It was a one night stand, a one night thing. You only saw him once, until two years later. He's back, and his world is complicated, he's full of secrets and a terrible past. You are his addiction, his drug, and once he's had you, he can't go without...
Driven by the strangle of vein Showing no mercy I'd do it again Open up your eyes You keep on crying Baby I'll bleed you dry Skies are blinking at me I see a storm bubbling up from the sea
"What is this? You can't stay away from me now?" I can't hide the smirk on my face when I pick up the phone call from Katie. She finally added my contact.
Joey walks by me sticking his butt out and puckering out his lips while whispering 'lover boy' I throw a pillow at him before he ducks and scurries off to the kitchen.
Fucking asshole
"No, actually. I thought I should tell you that I saw Taylor in the store today." I raise up before feeling my whole body tense.
Why won't he leave her the fuck alone?
"What did he want?" I question.
"He was trying to scare me away from you... I don't think that's possible." She stutters a bit.
Knew she couldn't stay away from me, very stupid of her.
"I'll talk to you later little one" I hang up fast, throwing my cellphone across the room, I can hear it shatter once it hits the wall.
Joey runs in fast with both hands full of snacks and a Twinkie hanging out of his mouth.
I forgot to mention that Joey can eat a whole house and never gain weight, if he isn't eating, he's acting like kid. I do worry about him sometimes but at this point, I'm just used to it.
"What the hell man. I was enjoying the last Twinkie, I thought someone broke in."
"The last Twinkie? I just bought those the other day and I didn't get not a one." I groan.
"If you weren't so busy eating something else you would time to eat a Twinkie." I cock my head at time before he reaches out his hand that had a cookie in it.
"Cookie?" I knock his hand away.
"I don't want your fucking cookie you idiot! We have bigger problems. We got to get Taylor and Richard off of our backs"
"Are you sure you want to go through with this? I know we made a copy of the tapes but it's still a big deal. He'll know about them."
I'm accountable for everything that happened on those tapes and to those people.
"He's got to stay away from Katie, she doesn't need this bullshit." Joey sniggers.
"You know it's pissing him off more that she's hanging around you." He's right. He didn't come back into town until he got word of me and Katie hanging out together.
I don't want to think about leaving her again.
"Let's see if this works first. I was thinking tape 12, my eleventh birthday." We head upstairs to slide the box of copy tapes out of the closet. It wasn't a very good hiding spot but it was somewhere nobody would think to look.
Thankfully Joey numbered them, one thing he actually did right. I find number 12, this was the first one that had Richard in it, this was the start of this vengeful era, once he knows I have this tape, little alone the rest, it'll be starting hell fire.
"I'm not so sure of this. I mean we are taking about exposing ourselves." I shake my head.
"They were my fathers, nothing to do with you. Stop dragging yourself into my problems."
"Well they are now my fucking problems. You are not facing shit like this alone now shut the hell up and let me help." I stand up before pushing the box back into the closet.
"Get a brown envelope and a black marker. I got to get something out of book 12 to go with it." He rushes off to his room to get an envelope while I go to my bookshelves and open #12 sketchbook, I flip through the pages of pictures printed out and taped onto each one.
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Graphic pictures.. pictures that turn my stomach and form knots in it. I'm disgusted, and I can't help but feel for the people in these pictures, the shit they had to go through because of some evil man.
I grabbed the picture I wanted before Joey brings the brown envelope in and I slide the tape and picture into it, sealing the top.
'This is ending now.' I write on the envelope.
"I can drop that off for you tomorrow when I go get another box of Twinkies" I rolled my eyes at Joey.
"I'm out and I clearly can't function without them." I nudge him before putting my book back on the shelf.
"Will you ever stop blaming yourself for those?" I turn to look at him.
"I hope one day I can." I admitted.
I can't take back what my father did because of me but I can only hope that I will never be the man he was.
"You know I got your back always" Joey comes at me with his arms reached out in front of him.
"Don't you fucking dare" I warn before rushing out the door and down the steps.
"Oh come on, you used to hug me all the time" He yells before falling me down the steps.
"We were little"
"Not that little" I huff before reaching for a pillow.
"One day I'm going to hug you and you'll love it, just wait. You're already cracking, I can see it." I flip him off before sitting down on the sofa.
"I'm going out tonight, do you want to come?" He questions before I shake my head.
"No, I'm gonna start on a new action show or something." He nods his head before grabbing his keys and leaving.
I pull out the bag from under the sofa and pull out season 1 tape of Jersey Shore that I bought earlier this morning.
I could give it a try.
I can't believe I'm even doing this. I place it into the DVD tray before laying down on the sofa and pressing play.
