desperate addictions

Chapter 6: What to say?

      The air around her was cold. She laid against the hard floor. Her mind was lost into a deep place. She wouldn't realize it now but this was the first time in along time she slept. Nothing disturbed her, No darkness came once her eye closed it was just her. Catherine opened her eyes. The room was dim, she leaned up against the bed. Her back ached from sleeping on the hard ground all night. She went to rub her eyes when she felt the wet sensation on her cheeks. She got up sitting on the edge of the bed staring down at her fingers that had the slight look of water. Catherine had no reconciliation of the events that happened last night. "Was I crying" She thought. she began trying to think but heard light footsteps approach her door. It opened releasing a bright light from outside the door in from the hallway causing Catherine to lift her hand above her eyes.

        "Good morning catherine hopefully I didn't wake you but from the looks of it you were already up. How'd you sleep?" Miss, Watson walked into the room looking around the small compact area most likely looking for any sign of harm.

"I don't remember, I guess good". Miss, Watson smiled at her response 'that's a good sign.' " Well I woke you a little late but i'll will take you to the washroom to get all cleaned up and then I will show you to the cafeteria to get your breakfast." Catherine stood up following the women. Hearing the word breakfast made her feel hungry. catherine thinks of the last meal she had early yesterday morning. It was Strawberry pancakes with honey sprinkled on top. Margaret had made them for her, it was her favorite.Catherine and Miss watson walked into the cafeteria. No one was there. Catherine assumed she was late.

"Don't worry everyone finished early and headed to their first chores. You will be getting a list of your own after group therapy" Catherine turned to Miss watson with a curious expression.

"Whens group therapy?" Miss Watson seemed to have almost forgot that important detail. "Oh forgive me. as soon as you finished with breakfast come to the therapy room. You remember where I showed it to you yesterday right?" Catherine nodded. Catherine watched as Miss watson left her. Catherine sat down looking at the plate she grabbed; it was eggs and a single slice of bread. As she sat she began to get lost in her own thoughts. 'Group therapy what even is that? We better not be sitting around talking about all our feels and shit.' Catherine then thought of when she walked past the room the first time. She saw all the different faces, all their expressions, how they were all so different and then there was his.

"So about last night, I know you don't remember but just know we're all sorry for what we did especially Aries. But anyways I know you're nervous about therapy there is nothing to worry about they are all just like you" virgo said out of concern for her well being. Catherine was taken out of her daze by a short man with a very shiny head holding a garbage bin.
"Are you done" Catherine jumped feeling the tap on her shoulder " Uhh yea.." Catherine slid her plate towards the man next to her. Taking this as a sign to start heading to the therapy room. Catherine began walking down the hallway started to regret ever coming. She was nervous. She shouldn't have came, she should have ran when she had the chance. Catherine almost considered bolting when she heard a familiar voice call out to her.

"Catherine in here we were just about to begin." Catherine turned to her right seeing a wide window and Miss, Watson sitting down around her a group of people now staring at her. Her stomach dropped to the ground. She never felt like this before usually she doesn't think hard about anything she just does but this is different. Catherine walks towards the door as soon as she walked in she felt all the stares, at this moment she was the center of attention.
"Come here catherine take a seat next to Mariane and we will will begin." Catherine looked up she saw the empty seat she made her way over walking in the middle of the circle keeping her eyes on the chair. She heard two boys on her left whisper to each other but ignored them. She took her seat looking down as she played with her fingers.