Dear you, i wonder how you felt
When i said " as long as the stars are above us"
I wonder if you felt like i was being too dramatic
Or did you realize, how pure and real my affections are for you.
I still remember how that day how you sang songs for me
On the campus of our alma mater but when i tried and reminded you of that day
To show you how much it meant to me
I saw that you forgot and believe me i dont loathe you for that
But that hurt me , took a little piece of me
Because it made me feel like maybe i wasn't so important for you
Maybe me and all the memories we made were not so relevaant for you.
But then you smiled, that goddamn smile
That smile, which takes away my breath and turns my vision into a spinning contest.
That smile should be illegal.
You for me are a muse.
I know that if you ever go, then i'll never be the same again
I know that maybe there will come a day when we wake up and realize
That we are two, different individuals with no place for eachother in our lives.
And that scares me, see, i am scared of losing.
Losing the secrets shared, the small kisses we share, the late night conversations, the inside jokes we have,the funny feeling my stomach gets when you look into my eyes too long.
When i first realized how far you are going to be from me
I lost myself, but when you said "i'll hold onto you"
It made me feel better.
Our mind is an amazing machine isn't it?
Because it records everything and tries and show the light when the darkness gets too blinding
And that's what my mind does, everytime my breath hides away into a corner so far away
That my lungs and muscles gets so tired trying to find it, like a cam recorder
It replays what you said that day ," noone can be you, i'll hold onto you" and just like that
My breath and sanity returns home again.
My dearest you, i need you to know
Noone can be you and even if i have to face the claps and thunders all over again
I'll hold on, to you and each and every word you ever said to me .
Hey you, do you remember how i told you
I'll be there till the stars are above you
Now i want you to scratch that.
I will be there for you even after the stars and infinities burn out.
Yours forever and always.
So, when ever you get time please do tell me
How was it to spend the seasons changing and listening to the sun and the moon's conversations together.
@yoursalways
