you&me// c.d & n.g

twenty six

About thirty minutes later, I was done crying. So I get up and walk out.

Once I get downstairs, I see all the guys sitting on the couch. They all look at me.

Cam's jaw is bruised, and Nash has a black eye. I bite my lip and look away.

"Lilly." Hayes says, standing up. I wrap him in a hug. Now here's someone that I'm glad to see. Hayes Grier.

"I missed you." I said.

"I missed you too."

I released him.

"Wanna go to the beach?" I ask.

"Lilly I don't think that's a goo-" Cameron starts

"No Cameron. I don't want to see you. Or him." Looking at Nash, "Or any of you really. Except Matt and Taylor and Shawn. You guys wanna come with us?"

They all nod.

"Okay. Be ready in thirty minutes. I would ask you guys," I say, referring to Jacob, Carter, and Aaron, "But there's not enough room in the car. And I don't want to see you four," I say looking at Gilinsky, Johnson, Cameron, and Nash, then going back upstairs.

I get on my teal strapless bikini and tribal bottoms. I slip on a Shawn Mendes sweatshirt that's probably two sizes too big and some white shorts.

I put my phone in the front pocket and grab a bit of money. I slip on some sandals and walk in the bathroom. I put my hair in a messy bun and put on a bit of water proof mascara. I'm going to the beach, why not? I walk downstairs and the guys are all already there, waiting for me.

Cam gets up, leaning in to give me a kiss, but I pull away from his grasp and walk away. When I turn around to close the door, he's standing there: teary eyed.

I don't think I'm quite ready to talk to him yet.

We get in the car, with Matt sitting shotgun, me driving, and Taylor, Shawn and Hayes in the back.

"Lilly go to Starbucks." Taylor said.

"Guys can I ask you something?" I said.

"Yeah anything," Matt said.

"You know Starbucks is a good place for talking about things." Taylor says.

Hayes laughs and Shawn whacks Taylor in the back of the head.

"Ouch." Taylor says.

"What is it Lills?" Shawn asks.

"Am I over reacting?"

"No! They shouldn't have done that too you!" Matt says.

All the guy agreed, and we arrived at the beach.

I went ahead and took my clothes and shoes off so they wouldn't get sand in them.

"Taylor..." I whined.

"Yeah?" He asks.

"Carry me. The grounds too hot that it burns my feet and I'm too lazy."

He laughs and walks over to me. I jump on his back and he puts his hands underneath my legs. I feel butterflies.

Wait, what?

No, Lilly you don't feel butterflies for him. You love Cameron. Matt jumped onto Shawn's back and Hayes was being a loner.

"Awe, poor Hayesy bear is a loner." I tease. Taylor laughs. We were walking to find somewhere to sit when I found myself playing with Taylor's hair.

"Your hair is soft," I laugh.

"Thanks," he chuckles.

We finally find a place to sit. Hayes, Matt, and Shawn all went to get Starbucks, (Taylor insisted) and Taylor and I were left alone, to save our spot.

I was sitting in front of Taylor, and I laid back into his lap, his legs wrapped around me. He started playing with my hair.

"Talking about my hair," he laughs, "Your hair feels like cotton candy- I mean. Uh. That was weird."

I laugh. "I'm gonna take that as a compliment." He smiles.

"Your beautiful."

"What?"

"Wait did I say that out loud?"

"Yeah..." I blush.

"Oh," he looks down at me, "but I meant it."

I sit up and face him.

"Really?"

"Yeah... Ever since I saw you, I just. I don't know Lilly. I fell in love." He says, pushing a piece of hair out of my face that had fallen out of my bun.

I looked into his eyes.

"Lilly." He sighed. "I know this doesn't change anything, but-" he leaned in and kissed me. I ran my fingers through his hair, smiling into the kiss. He picked me up and sat me on his lap.

"That was nice," he said. His forehead pressed to mine.

"Yes, yes it was." We stayed this way for a long time, breathing the same air. Pecking each other's lips every once in a while, then making out sometimes too.

I got up and pulled him into the water. He wrapped his arms around my waist and hugged me.

"I know you love Cameron. But I think I love you."

"I think I love you too." Then pulled away. "Wait. I'm dating Cam. Oh my gosh. I cheated on him. I'm a slut. I'm a whore. They were right. They were right." I said.

"No no no! Lilly. I won't tell. We'll pretend that it didn't happen. I promise he won't find out,"

"Thank you Taylor," I said, hugging him.

"GUYS WE HAVE STARBUCKS!!!" Matt yelled. I released Taylor and we walked up to the beach. After we finished we got a woman to take a picture for us, and after we had all posted it on twitter, we went into the water.

A few hours later, we were all tired and so we went back home.

"Lilly why did you fuck Cameron?" Gilinsky asks as soon as I walk in the door.

"Jack I don't feel like it right now."

"No! Why did you fuck Cameron?"

"Why the fuck do you care?"

"Because your seventeen and he's nineteen! You shouldn't loose your virginity!"

"Well. I did. And don't worry, I'll be sleeping alone tonight." I say, storming out of the room.

At twelve thirty I'm still awake. I didn't know how much I loved cuddling with Cameron until he was gone.

I walked to the room he was staying in, and shook him slightly. He immediately rolled over, eyes wide.

"Cam I can't sleep without you here. I'm sorry."

"I know. I can't sleep either." He said, getting up. I pulled him toward the door and then walking back to my- our room.

I laid down and he followed me.

I kissed him sloppily.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." I sobbed.

"Sorry for what?"

"Overeacting" lie. "I mean. I made a big deal about it." Lie, "and I'm sorry," lie.

He nods. I pull his shirt off and place my hands on his abs, running them up and down his body.

"Why are you so hot?" I say.

"Because- well... I don't know." He laughs.

"I'm serious." I smile, "Your just so fucking hot." I say, kissing his jawline.

"Lilly?"

"Yep."

"I love you," he says, kissing the top of my head.

I kissed his chest, and then drift off to sleep.