Hopeless Fangirl ๑๑ Lee Felix

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Dear, Haru

Hey it's yourself, I know how much it's been hurting for you, the pain has been so over barring and I don't know how you do this. How do you act okay? How do you stay so strong? I know the answer. It's all for Haneul , I should've protected him from our dad. It's all my fault cause if I took all the hits for him without him seeing how pathetic of a sister I am he wouldn't have to deal with any of this.

Daddy? Where are you right now. What did I do to make you so mad at me. What did I do to make you this angry? Am I that unlovable? Was I a bad person? What did I do? I know I'm a worthless person, I want to die so badly but haneul will be hurt by both me and you and he's suffered too much. I just want to live peacefully why can't it ever be like that?

I will never trust a man ever again. I can't get more broken than right now.

When can my pain end?

Sincerely, Haru

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Dear, Felix

I know times have been rough but are you really okay with all of this? Is being jealous of someone being around another love? Do I like Haru? What about Hyejin? What am I doing? I've messed up so many times. Why does life hate me.

Why am I sitting here still thinking about my dumb feelings when there's worse things that are happening. It's so dumb. Why am I so foolish to worry about something like feelings. They'll die down eventually. Right?

Haru is no one to me. I don't need her in my life. She's a nobody and I'm somebody. Who cares about her. But why did Jisoo care so much is she paying her to be her friend?

Haru is not one who can make friends easily, she's hideous. She has nothing special about her she's just that basic girl I see all the time and she doesn't matter to me. But why was I mad at her and I.N earlier?

Is she another Hyejin?

Sincerely, Felix