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22.

"Babe just hear me out.. that was not me in the picture, I promise."

"Oh yeah? Well it sure looked like it and she tagged you too, so that doesn't really add up Fergal."

"I love you baby. Only you. I would have no reason to cheat on you."

"Then why'd you do it? Actually.. don't answer that. I don't want to hear any excuses. And if you ever show up to my house again, I'm calling the police." I say before slamming the door shut on his face.

I feel my blood boil through my veins, thickening as my anger rises. I can't stop thinking about our argument.

Ever since mine and Fergal's break up, I've been a wreck. Getting cheated on sucks. But having it happen to you twice makes you feel like a major piece of shit.

Most people love to believe that I have zero insecurities because of what I post online. In fact that's the exact opposite.

I am constantly fighting a battle with myself if I'm good enough or not and it's all because of stupid guys like Fergal Devitt.

I haven't slept since I found out about the affair. He was supposed to be my love and he proved to be like every other guy.

Something I have never said and probably will never say until right now is... Colby was right.

He warned me about Ferg. And I should have listened. I don't know why I thought he would be different. I feel so naive after this whole situation.

I hear a knock on my door but I stay put on the couch under my blanket. Then, a few seconds later.. they knock again. "Go away.." I groan out to them.

The front door opens, footsteps follow and gain closer to me.

"I said leave." I groaned louder throwing a pillow in the direction of the person.

It must have made connect with them because all I hear following that is an "Ow" come from their mouth. And by the sound of their voice, I know who it is.

"Why are you here Colby?" I shut my eyes so he can't see me crying.

I feel him get closer to me before sitting at the edge of the couch, near my feet. "To see how you're doing." He answers.

"I'm doing great.. you can leave now." I say sarcastically. Colby rips off the blanket from my body. "Colby!" I yell at my brother.

Colby sighs and he looks a bit taken back. A look of hurt overcomes his face. "You're crying.."

"Yep, great discovery. Now can you leave?" Trying to be as stern as possible so I don't allow anymore tears to release from my eyes.

He shakes his head and starts to look emotional as well. "Come here." He pulls me in for a hug and as soon as my face hits his chest, the waterworks explode from my eyes.

My dear brother tries comforting me by assuring me it's okay as he strokes my hair with his hand. "W-why did he do it? Is there something wrong wi-with me?" I pour my heart out, feeling crushed on the inside.

"Nothing is wrong with you. That guy is just an asshole." Colby lets out a deep breath.

I continued sobbing as we sat in silence. When suddenly the doorbell rang. "Great.. who could that be?" I groan out as I throw myself to the couch.

"I'll get it." Colby gets up and walks to the front door. I hear him in the foyer talking to somebody. My ceilings are high so the house echoes which means I can hear anything from any part of the house. "Can I help you?"

I can't hear what the other person says. All I hear is Colby's responses.

"She's my sister. Do I need a reason to be here? Now give me one good reason why you are here." I stand up as I hear Colby say that. I feel more and more anxious to see who it is as I walk closer.

Shockingly, at my front porch is my ex. Michael Hutter. "Mike.." I say appearing from Colby's shadow. He turns to me and gives a sympathetic look as his eyes meet mine.

I move into his arms and allow him to hold my underneath their warm embrace. My tears once again rush from my eyes as my ex, and rekindled friend, squeezes me tight and close to his body. Words don't even release my mouth, all I feel is pain and sadness.

Mike holds me tighter the more I cry. "It's okay. I promise it'll be alright Ari."

I can feel my brother's confusion and slight anger burn through the back of my head. I'm gonna get a lot of shit for Mike being here but I don't care. He's been here for me since the break up and I need all the support I can get. Even if that is from Mike.

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Okkkk so idk if that's an awk ending or not? But yeah I'm gonna do updates like this randomly between IG posts! So I hope you guys like so far :-) more things to come, keep reading! -S