Harry had put his arm around Simona, as the jealousy started building up inside of me. What’s going on? Why am I feeling this way? I thought. I shook Simona’s hand. “It’s nice to meet you.” I said smiling. Not. Niall came. “Hey who’s this?” Niall asked. “This is Simona.” Niall shook Simona’s hand. “It’s great to meet you.” “You too.” She replied. Niall turned around and hugged me. “Hey babe, you look so pretty.” I smiled. “Thank you.” I said, blushing. “So is Simona staying for the night?” I asked Harry. “Yeah, her parents are on a work trip.” “Oh okay,” I responded. “Where will she be sleeping?” I asked. “There’s not enough room in my bed, so I was hoping she could share the guest room with you.” Harry said. I didn’t wanna share a room with a girl that I’m apparently jealous of! But, I was willing to do whatever Harry wanted. “Yeah sure!” I said, trying to make it look like I was telling the truth. “It’s getting late. Let’s all change and get ready for bed.” Said Harry. “You sound like my dad!” Said Simona. Everyone started laughing, but me. Simona borrowed a pair of clothes from me (sadly) and went to Harry’s room. I just sat on the bed staring into space. I love Niall, but I don’t know why I’m feeling this way. Forget about Harry, now it’s all about Niall. I thought. Simona walked back inside the room, with a different pair of clothes on. Boy clothes. “Um, what happened to the clothes I gave you?” I asked. “Oh, Harry said I could borrow his, here you go.” She said, as she handed me back my clothes. “Okay… Thanks…” I said sarcastically. I put the clothes away, and walked back into the living room. “HEY CUTIE, PATOOTIE, WOOTIE!” Niall said, yelling. “Um, hi.” I responded. Niall has got some problems… But he’s still amazing. “You’re so beautiful. I love you so much!” He said. “I love you too! But why are you acting like this?” I asked. “I’m just in a really good mood and thought that I should show you how much I love and care about you.” He said. “Aww, you’re so sweet. I love you so much!” I said smiling. He gave me one of his ‘Horan’ hugs, as Harry and Simona walked towards us. Great. The jealousy was happening again. I really hated myself for feeling like this… I took a step back, as they stood in front of us. “What’s wrong?” Niall asked me. “Nothing.” I responded. I lied and said I had to use the bathroom. I walked away as Harry called my name. “Julie!” He yelled. I turned around, “Yes?” “Is it okay if you sleep in the living room, and I sleep in your room with Simona?” Great. Not only did I have to share a room with the girl I’m jealous of, but now Harry’s kicking me out of the room, to sleep with her. Could things get any worse? I just wish I wasn’t jealous, it would make things a WHOLE lot easier. “Sure…” I replied, with a bit of attitude. Harry gave me a stare, as if I was being rude or something. I hope that’s not what he thought. Harry took Simona’s hand and walked into MY room with her. “Babe, you okay?” Niall asked. “Yeah.” I responded. Obviously, I wasn’t okay. I knew by now that I was developing feelings for Harry, and I did not like where this was going. “We should get to bed now.” Niall said. I smiled and followed him into the room. I got into the bed beside Niall’s and lay down underneath the covers. I heard Niall get off of his bed, and lie down next to me. He wrapped his arms around me, as I just felt really awkward, not having feelings for him anymore. I don’t know why I don’t, and I feel really bad, but I guess after the kiss with Harry, I’ve started to develop feelings for him. You can’t just kiss someone, and not feel something. I regret that night. In the end, all I’m going to do is just hurt Niall, and it didn’t feel right at all. Niall kissed my neck and then my cheek. “Goodnight, cutie.” He said. “Night.” I responded. I was starting to fall asleep, but before I did, although lying in his chest was comfy, I decided to unwrap his arms from me. The next morning I woke up with Niall out of bed. I went in the kitchen and found a note on the table. It read: “Dear my beautiful love… The lads and I had to go record some songs for the new album. I left you money under this piece of paper, so you could go out, enjoy the sun and have some yummy breakfast. I’ll be back around lunch time. I was hoping we could have a picnic or something. Text me after you read this and we’ll talk about it. Seen you soon, love Niall. Xoxo” : I grabbed the money, got changed and went out for breakfast at ‘The Sunset Grill’. I finished my breakfast. I texted Niall.
Me: Hey Niall, I have to tell you something… I’ll tell you at the picnic.
Niall:
What is it? Love you honey… I’ll be home soon.
Me:
Okay and I’ll tell you at the picnic.
Niall:
It’s not anything bad right?
I decided not to reply. I thought it was best if I told him at the picnic. I hope he takes it well and doesn’t get that hurt. Although it hurts me to have to tell him, I know it’s best for me to tell him the truth, than to keep our love a lie. Niall kept texting me ‘Hello? Where are you? You there?’ and stuff like that, but I didn’t reply. He even called a couple of times, but I didn’t feel like answering. I went home. As soon as I got into the hotel room, my mind immediately went to thinking about how I was going to tell Niall. I got another text from Niall.
Niall:
I don’t know if you’ll see this or not because you aren’t replying, but I just set up our picnic J Meet me at Crumble Park (not real park). See you soon, Xoxo.
I made sure that I was actually going to do this one last time. I’m now sure of it. I walked to Crumble Park and saw Niall sitting with a whole bunch of food around him, under a tree at the other side of the park. He noticed me, smiled, and started waving. I waved back at him, but didn’t smile. Now wasn’t the time for smiling. I had just reached Niall, as he got up and gave me a tight hug. He sat down and patted the ground next to him. I didn’t sit beside him. “Niall, as I was saying on the phone…” He had cut me off. “Yeah, why weren’t you answering my calls or texts?” He asked. “That’s what I’m trying to tell you…” He cut me off again. “But, I don’t get it, why would you…” This time I cut him off. “Niall! Listen to me! I’m trying to tell you something, but you keep cutting me off.” “Sorry…” He said looking down. I felt bad that I had yelled at him. “It’s fine.” I replied. “I really have to tell you something Niall…” I said. He looked confused. “Yeah, what is it?” “Um… It’s about us. Ever since that kiss with Harry. I mean…” I couldn’t continue on, it hurt me so much to break his heart. His face went red as he looked very worried. “What about the kiss?” He said looking confused. “Niall, when you kiss someone, you can’t just not feel anything. I mean it’s a kiss! Something where two lips meet, and make you feel something for the other person.” Niall’s eyes started to water. “So what you’re saying is… Is that, the two people you’re talking about are you and Harry, and you’re feeling something for him.” He said as if it were a statement. The tone of his voice started to break and sounded like he didn’t want it to be true. I nodded my head, staring into his eyes. Tears started streaming down his cheeks, as he turned away from me. “Niall I’m so…” “Don’t. Just don’t do this to me again! What have I done to deserve this? You said you felt nothing… But you did. You lied to me Julie. I trusted you. But instead you just lied to me.” He looked at the ground, while scratching the back of his head. “Niall, I didn’t intend on this to happen.” “Nobody did. But it did happen, and now what has it done? Broke my heart, took all my love and put it in your heart.” My heart dropped. Those words just broke me into a million pieces. “Niall…” “Don’t Niall me.” He cut me off. He walked past me and nudged my shoulder, I turned around and started to chase after him. “Niall wait!” I called. “Go away!” He yelled back. “Nobody wants you here! Especially me.” He whispered the last part. Ouch. Now that I really took to heart.
