Dear Anonymous

Letter Number one

Dear Anonymous

First of all sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the way I treated you when we first went out. I honestly didn't mean to treat you the way I did. You were my first ever real relationship and also my first girlfriend but that is no excuse for the way i treated you. I understand now that i neglected you in a way and treated you more like a best friend than a girlfriend, and i'm truly sorry.

I remember that really hot day. Walking over to javelin and seeing someone who I'd never seen before and the first thing that popped into my heart was "man she's beautiful"

I still remember the first moment I met you as if it was yesterday; walking over to javelin activity for octathlon at school and there you were laying down on the grass your short chocolate brown hair covering part of your face I have to be honest and say I was surprised because i'd never seen a girl with such short hair before and I loved it. That was the moment I felt butterflies in my stomach, you were the first girl I remember that ever made me feel that way one

A lot has changed since that day. A LOT. I loved You with everything i had. But never new how to show it because i was so focused on what others might think of us being together.

After you left and couldn't deal with me any longer, my heart was shattered the words I never wanted to hear rang through my ears repeatedly for weeks on end

"I think we should just be friends"

We agreed to just be friends and I was happy.

But what followed that year a lot of people would not put up with, they would leave. Never speak to you again. But did I? NO. No i stayed friends. Stayed friends when I knew it was bad for me but, nothing could prepare me for what happened next.

We were friends. You broke my trust. Shattered me. Used me. Hurt me beyond repair.

I just kept falling for everything no matter what people told me i wouldn't listen because i trusted you. I really should have listened to them

It's only now i understand why I continued falling for you and everything you said and still stay and that's because I still love you no matter how much I don't want too. No matter how much i wish i could make those feeling disappear I can't.

I'm Sorry.

I Love You

Love From BangtanNuts