The Forgotten Cimorelli

Letter

BELLE:

I was sat in the back of the class sitting in silence, I heard people whispering and then turning back to me, I knew they were talking about me.

I suddenly looked up when the door open and saw Molly ( Joseph's now ex girlfriend ) came in and said to my math teacher " I've been moved to this class sir " my teacher replied " okay , find a seat " she came over near my table and sat a row in front of me, she turned back to me and quietly said

" everyone is going to know what you did". I'd had enough and shouted back " what, are you jealous because I was with Joseph before you". my teacher looked to me and ordered me out the class, I shouted back " Molly, your a slag and you know it" and walked out lifting my middle finger to her. I made my way through the halls , in silence. Crying. I then got a message from an unknown number it said " Belle, you ain't worth it , just kill yourself because this will never go away, I hope Joseph was worth it because that was the first and last time you would ever be loved, your just a slag and I can't wait for the day your left on the streets because your family aren't going to want you, also check your locker , there's something that might help you". I went over to my locker and opened it there i saw a blade with a note stuck to it saying " i dare you, to end it ".I then saw an envelope and opened it, there I saw photos from the party where I met Joseph, they were of me drinking and kissing Joseph , if my family ever saw these there would be trouble . who put these in my locker and why?. I began to feel unwell and grabbed my phone and dialled Lisa's number " please, come and get me , I feel sick" I lied and told her I had already signed out, so she said " yeah, of course " she seemed worried. I made my way out of the school hoping teachers wouldn't see me, luckily I managed to escape before they saw me . I saw Lisa's car driving towards me when I realised I still had the blade and photos in my hand and quickly shoved them into my bag cutting my hand whilst doing so, my hand began to bleed and I quickly tried to stop the bleeding but Lisa got to me before and said " oh my gosh ,Belle what happened to your hand?" I replied with " I caught it on my locker , now can we go" . I wanted to get away from school before the teachers caught me.

Lisa took off her black sweater and told me to wrap my bleeding arm around it. I did so and thanked her .

When we got home it was quiet and I assumed everyone had finished and was at the beach, as I turned into the kitchen I saw all my sisters apart from Lisa standing there and looking at me concerned, i asked them " where's everyone else?" Christina answered mom and dad have gone to San Diego with Joey, Nick and Christian for a couple of weeks and Alex and Michael are still in New York for the rest of the week" I said " why have mom and dad left ?" Katherine replied " its for work but the younger ones wanted to go but we didn't and your at school so you wouldn't have been able to go" , I said " well it was nice of them to tell me , I'm going to Tom's now ,bye ". I was just about to leave when I felt a hand grab my arm, it was Christina , she told me to sit down because they needed to talk. I didn't know why ,I looked over to lisa who was sat on the chair, she looked over to me and mouthed " i didn't tell them". what was she talking about , what didn't she tell them.

It then hit me, they knew about my big secret , they knew what had happened them months ago with Joseph. Christina then began " When were you planning to tell us that you have been sleeping around" I looked at Christina embarrassed, she then shouted "Well" , I shouted back " why does it matter to you, I will make my own mistakes, I will learn from them, so just leave it"

Amy then said " so you admit it ,you slept with Tom " I didn't know what she was talking about, but didn't realise when I said " yes I slept with Joseph but it was a mista.."

Oh crap, I thought to myself , everyone except lisa looked at me and all shouted " what".

I am such an idiot, they thought I was talking about Tom but I just admitted to sleeping with Joseph as well. why am I such an idiot, Lauren then spoke up " who the heck is Joseph, I thought you only slept with Tom , btw the most stupid thing you could ever do"

I looked up at them and said " I didn't say Joseph , I said Tom and how do you know about that anyway", Christina replied " we cracked him , we knew something had happened between you two and he eventually told us, now who is Joseph". Lisa finally spoke up " look guys Belle made a little mistake ,she told me she wouldn't do it again" . Christina snapped back at her " Lisa, you knew, when did you think to tell us and also are you a complete idiot she promised you she wouldn't do it again but she did with Tom this time, she lied to you and she is making you look like an idiot". I couldn't take it anymore I grabbed my bag and raced up to the bathroom, I heard my sisters shouting, telling me they were not finished. I shouted through the door " shut up , and stop blaming Lisa it's not her fault". after a while it went quiet, I was so annoyed and threw my bag across the room, as I flew across the room I saw a silver thing drop out the bag, I realised it was the blade. I picked it up and looked at it, thinking to myself. I slowly glided the blade across my arm making faint marks on my skin, when I suddenly heard the door knock it made me jump and I accidentally cut myself , badly. although it hurt , I felt better , weirdly,and did it a second time ,then a third. then I heard Lisa call me, I wrapped some tissue around my arm and pulled my sleeve over and placed the blade into my bag, I quickly cleaned up the blood that was dotted around the floor and slowly made my way out the bathroom ,there Lisa looked at me, disappoint was wiped across her face, she then said " you promised me, you told me you wouldn't do it again , that you would wait for marriage". I looked at lisa and said "I'm sorry , but I'm old enough to make my own decisions and pushed past her,put my bag in my room and crept downstairs, nobody was there so I went out the door and went on to Tom's. I knocked on his door and said " i told you not to tell them and you promised". he looked back at me confused and said "what are you talking about, do think I told your family what we did , Belle come on you know me , why would I do that! , your forgetting that I would get into shit as well if I told them" , I said "well who told them" , Tom looked back at me and said " what they know, how?". I said "that's what I came to talk to you about, they told me you told them". he looked back at me and said " Belle I swear I didn't tell them, why would I, why would I want anyone to know are private life". he grabbed my wrists and suddenly pain teared through my body , he had just grabbed my cut arm , my eyes watered from the pain but I didn't give anything. he told me to come in and I made my way to his room where i sat on his bed , he put his arm around me and said " Belle , you have to believe me when I say I didn't tell them " ,i replied " I do believe you but I don't know who told them".

CHRISTINA:

I am so angry with Belle, why would she be so stupid to sleep with one boy let alone two. okay I admit , Tom didn't tell us what happened but we knew something was up between them so we decided to find out. when we told Belle we knew about her and Tom we didn't expect her to admit it about someone else though , well apart from Lisa because she had known all along. after we confronted Belle about it she got annoyed and eventually ran upstairs, I think she is still up there actually , she's been up there a while, maybe she's thinking about what an idiot she is.

LISA:

Belle called me up from her school and asked me to get her, I agreed to get her but I knew that bringing her back she was going to be in trouble at home because my sisters knew about her little experience with Joseph, when I saw her I didn't tell her what was waiting for her at home because I didn't want her to get angry so I decided to not tell her, as she got into the car I saw blood dripping from her hand. I asked her " what happened to your hand?" she replied "oh I caught it on the locker". I gave her my sweater and told her to wrap it around her hand to stop the blood dropping on the seats.

Once we got home , it was dead silent however I knew the silence wouldn't last.

I went up to the bathroom and after a while came back downstairs to see Christina telling Belle she knew, I looked over to her and mouthed " i didn't tell them". it was then the shouting began, after about 20 minutes of arguing Belle got up and ran upstairs with Christina calling up to her " we're not finished yet".

After a while I made my way upstairs and knocked on door until eventually Belle came out , looking pale.i went Into the bathroom and as I was shutting the door I saw her dump her bag into our room and went downstairs.