12. Alone

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One and a half year exact

The last time we met

On my birthday, you left,

At midnight

When you left for your flight,

And never came back

That is why I have a whole stack,

Of what? Of your letters that you gave

That I read every day

I also write to you

If only you knew,

How much I write about you in the middle of the night

Looking at the way you and the stars shone so bright

But at the same time I struggle to fight,

I'm still stuck in the same place

Trying to keep up my pace

Without seeing that smile everyday on your face,

Every time I turn back, I am reminded of you

How in the school, back in the janitor's closet me you drew

And made me shut up by kissing me when I had no clue,

The times you were sleepy and you slept on my lap

And I was eventually into a trap,

That I loved very much

Every touch,

Now I'm tied with a chain

Trying to resist the pain

While the memories in my mind never drain,

How not one day goes not remembering you

And it is true,

No matter how mad I get

Even when you threw me in the pool and made me all wet,

But then you came in too

Then you brushed your lips against mine as light a feather,

I am losing everything I had

Which is stupid and sad,

Now it's impossible to get back to you

Good Luck to me, finding someone new,

Which will obviously not take place

Cause I don't have enough space,

Enough space for someone to heal my broken heart,

I'm fighting just for a feeling

That would never be healing,

You just disappeared

The thing that I feared

Then and there at that moment I was teared,

I can't sleep at all

I see black, reminded of you, then I fall,

Into a black hole

And there goes my goal,

That's me every night

That is how I somehow try to stay away from the fight,

Now I'm sitting on the floor

Hoping you'd come knocking at my door,

But I know that wouldn't happen,

So here I am

A broken mess

Left Alone

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