Aftermath

Chapter Twenty - Apologize

Collin and I still have yet to talk, it's going on day three and people were starting to notice at school, Jade and Jake knew what happened and Jade made sure to stick by my side while we were at school. "Has anyone seen Zoey around?" I asked in general, Jade looked over to Jake and he shrugged his shoulders. "Last I heard, she went to visit her mom." Jade said as we changed our books out in her locker, I still have yet to use my own since Barbie declared war on me. "Heads up.." Jake whispered, looking in his direction I spotted Collin walking down the hall with Alexa beside him, they weren't extremely close but close enough to bother me. "You two still haven't spoken to each other?" Jade asked nudging me, I shook my head and turned around to finish exchanging books. "And it doesn't look like it's going to start today, either." Jake said as Collin passed us by without a word or even a glance. "I wish he would man up and just tell me that it's over, or something!" I said slamming the locker shut.

The whole school day has passed and like the others Collin still refused to speak to me or even look in my direction, I was tired of his games by this point, prom was this Saturday and I needed to know if we were going to go together or not. Just as we made our way to the parking lot I spotted Alexa leaning against Collin's truck, he was tossing his book bag into the back seat. "Just go talk to him, tell wanna be Barbie to scram." Jade said shoulder bumping me, letting out a sigh I nodded. "Okay." Walking over there I could hear Alexa muttering my arrival to Collin, she gave me a smug smile and stood in front of me blocking my view of him. "Collin, can we talk?" I asked ignoring her. "He doesn't want to talk to you." She snapped, rolling my eyes I didn't want to deal with this bitch right now. "Collin, be a man and talk to me." She scuffed and he just stood there behind her with his arms crossed over his chest. "See! Clearly he has nothing to say to you, thot." She was playing my last nerve, one more smart comment out of her mouth and I'm going slap her. "Collin!" I snapped, still he said nothing. "Fine, what ever! I'm done, we're done." That got his attention, he moved next to Alexa and stood there glaring at me. "Love how you can throw us away so easily." He snapped back, I just laughed at him. "No, you're the one who threw us away. You've ignored me for three days, you're constantly hanging out with her, what am I supposed to do or think?" "What ever, Sutton... You've been looking for an excuse for us to break up, I knew back in New York when Brendon commented on your photo that you two have been in contact behind my back, I'm not stupid! Well guess what! You can now finally go be with him!" Letting my anger get the best of me, I used all my strength and shoved him, he stumbled back but caught himself. "What the fuck!" Alexa said getting in my face, not even thinking twice I shoved her back into him. "Fuck you! Both of you!" I yelled at them, quickly turning on my feet I ran for my car, I now had people watching me and whispering as I darted across the parking lot.

"It was only a matter of time, Collin doesn't do relationships." I heard one girl say to another, they both just shook their heads and continued walking. "Maybe this is for the best." Jade said hugging me once I made it to my car, I didn't want to cry, I refused to cry. "You're right, I've got bigger and better things to focus on." She nodded agreeing, the ride home was silent, I didn't want to listen to music and be reminded of him, he doesn't deserve anymore of my time. Once I got home I called up Myra Mears and told her that I'd like to proceed with my training if possible, we had set up a plan of me visiting New York while everyone was on the senior trip next week, I'd have a whole week in New York to focus on me and my future. My mom had agreed to let me go which was beyond shocking seeing how she wasn't totally on board with me choice in career, she supported me no matter what though. "Well, since Collin and I are no longer, I don't see why you can't pursue Bill anymore?" I said giving her the best smile I could muster, she quickly shook her head dismissing the idea. "No, I don't think I want to go down that road... it was a mistake the first time and I'm not going to allow it a second time." "Well, If you do... I'll support you." She gave me a hug. "Thank you, baby girl." "I don't know if this will make you mad, but... I called dad the other day..." she showed no emotion, that kinda scared me a bit. "Oh... Um, I can't be mad, he is your father after all." I shrugged my shoulders. "He offered to pay for college." Her eyes widened and a small smile on her face. "That's wonderful, honey! You should take him up on his offer." "You think so?" "Uh? Yes! Maybe he can get you into the dorms as well.." I didn't even think about that, now that Collin and I are over, where will I live? I can't afford an apartment, I can't afford to go to school, model and work full time. That's impossible! "Holy crap, mom! I haven't even thought of that! What if there isn't any dorms? What am I supposed to do?! Where am I supposed to live?!" Panic has now set in, my mom tried to calm me down and promised that we'd figure it out, we just have to talk to my dad and see what can be done. "Go take a nice hot bath, relax! Everything will be fine." She said pushing me to my room, letting out a sigh I nodded my head agreeing. "Okay.."