Aftermath

Chapter Eleven - Let's talk

    
    Work was slow since Bill and Brendon were both out of the office today, Collin sat on the edge of my desk as I did the work that was left on my desk by V. Things were still kinda tense between us since this afternoon, neither one of us really wanted to address the elephant in the room, well I didn't at least.  "Are you almost done? We can leave early tonight." He said playing a game on his phone, I was almost done but ignored his pestering. "Russo?" He snapped his fingers in front of my face, glaring up at him just as I finished the final touches on the file. "Collin, I'm working. Something you should be doing." He raised his brows at my snappiness, raising his hands in surrender he hopped of my desk and headed off down the hall, I couldn't help but to feel guilty so I trailed behind him until we walked into the mailroom. "I'm sorry." I muttered, he turned around shrugging his shoulders. "It's whatever." He stated as he started organizing some mail, chewing the inside of my cheek I debated if I wanted to leave early or stay. "Wanna go somewhere private?" I whispered making sure that no one else around would hear, he looked at me and smirked. "Fuck yes." He took me by the hand and we ran down the hallway before Brad could stop us, once we were outside we split and jumped into his truck.

We rode around for a while until he pulled up in front of my house, we had just rode around with the windows down and the radio blaring our favorite songs, it felt freeing as we acted careless with no place to go. "Do you think.... do you think that we could be end game?" Collin asked staring ahead out the windshield as we sat parked in my driveway, his question through me off a bit, looking over studying his features, he was so handsome and I felt so lucky that he wanted to be with me. His chiseled scruffy jaw was tense, his blue eyes held doubt, his dark brown hair looked as if he constantly ran his fingers through it. He finally looked over at me, giving him the best smile I could, I was falling for him but I know that a part of me will always belong to Brendon. "I'd like to think so." I whispered taking his hand in mine, kissing his knuckles. "Sutton, I've never felt this way about anyone. I'm so fucking terrified that you're going to rip the heart right out of my chest and stomp it..... I just want to make sure that you're not using me to get over him, I don't want to be your rebound anymore, I want us to aim for the end game." My grip on his hand tightened, the doubt was written all over his face. I was expecting this after today, but I couldn't blame him because I felt the same way when it came to him cheating on me. "You're scared that I'm going to leave you for Brendon?" He bit his bottom lip and nodded. "I'm scared that you're going to cheat on me." "I'm not, I know how to be committed and I promise, sex with them is nothing to compare the sex you and I have. Sex is so much better when you're doing it with someone you care about, it's like a different high that you can't get anywhere else." "I won't go back to Brendon, being with him just holds to much pain and drama. I don't want to deal with a crazy ex who might or might not be carrying his child. You've made me as happy as he used to make me, I can see a future with us." "Are you sure?" Nodding my head, I was and it felt good to feel that way again. "I am." "So, will you go to NYU with me?" My eyes widened, I hadn't thought about college even though that really should have been my main focus. "Collin... I." He sighed shaking his head, I could see him building walls around his emotions. "Never mind, forget it." He interrupted me, frowning I squeezed his hand. "I haven't had time to submit an application, I've been so busy at work and with you... I just haven't had time."  He smirked like he knew a secret that I didn't.  "If that weren't the case, would you consider going with me?" His eyes held hope again, he leaned closer to me, I could feel his breath fanning across my face making my mind fog.  "Of course, I'd go wherever you go."  I whispered leaning over brushing my lips against his, he reached up cupping my face deepening the kiss.  "Stay the night?"  I asked breaking the kiss, he just nodded and brushed some hair from my face.  "Yeah, I'll be back tonight. I gotta make an appearance at home and grab clothes." Smiling I gave him a quick peck.  "Okay, I'll see you soon." He nodded letting me go, my heart felt disappointed at the loss of his touch.