"i didnt mean to fall for all of you"
"just choose one."
"please give me time to think about this. you are all important to me."
"once, ive chosen one. please promise me that i wont lose any of you after."
"we promise."
SORRY FOR ALL THE TYPOS AND...
its 7am and i just woke up. its been three days and as PDnim said, i will debut in 3 days since i was signed with them. and today is the day i debut. so its been about a month and a half since ive been here and i speak a little bit korean.
now, i am still in pajamas. i was wearing my oversized hoodie and dolphin shorts. i get to be with the boys in 8 hours. i went downstairs and ate breakfast. since i was debuting, i wanted to surprise everyone including the boys so PDnim sent a girl to be with me today. she was a stylist. i got my hair recolored and i got my nails done as well.
new hair color:
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after 5 hours shes finished then i got into my outfit then she did my make up. i love my new hair and my new nail omggg!!
outfit:
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we were gonna perform mic drop then announce it. after 2 hours i still had an hour to spare but i had to go to the location so i did. it took us 30mins. i had the stylist. when we got down we went straight to the backstage and then the dressing room. once i entered the room i saw all of them getting ready then all their eyes on me including the stylists.
"wow.." Tae said while staring. i blushed. "uhm, hey guys!" i greeted them. they all stood up one by one and then hugged me and said hi. i could tell Jungkook was getting shy so i was the one who hugged him. "you look great Zerena!" Jimin complimented. "why thank you, you dont look bad yourself!" i said and blushed. "i like what you've done with your hair!" Jungkook said. "you look hot!" Tae said. i blushed and all our eyes widened. "Yah! stob it!" Jin said and i chuckled. "its true tho! in a good way hyung." Yoongi added. "aiiish!" i dont see it!" i said. "hey, enough! we'll do 2 practices then get going." RM interrupted. "yes sir!" i teased and we chuckled.
we practiced twice then got our mics attatched to us. i still dont get why i have to be center, i got no jams. whoops, i mean solo parts hehe. but i guess i should just follow. but i cant help but to feel like a burden to them. but i just have to think positive. :)
they got into their original position and the music started to play, i heard all the ARMY screaming, and i kinda screamed too. hey, its technically still my first time to be in a BTS concert. "Kim Namjoon, Kim Seokjin, Min Yoongi, Jung Hoseok, Park Jimin, Kim Taehyung, Jeon Jungkook, BTS. they chanted twice. then the platform started to rise up where i was standing and the crowd went silent. i was beside Hobi and he started rapping. i also rapped a few as well. thats kinda what i do, i center with them and i sing a few of their lines or duet it with them. i was so nervous cause the crowd were still silent. then a minute later they started shouting when the chorus came. it made me smile and i gave it more effort now.
after our performance they screamed and screamed. Namjoon was signaling them to shh for awhile but they didnt for about 30 seconds and it made me laugh. once they were quiet Joonie, started to talk.
"you guys may be curios, why were there 8 people dancing or whos the girl present here on stage with us. she is, 321," he started. "Bangtan's new member!" the 7 of them shouted. the crowd went wild. i waved and i was blushing hard. "introduce yourself, Z" Taehyung told me and Jungkook put me infront and the center. the crowd went silent. "uhm, hi guys!" they screamed. "uhm, im Zerena Dylan Martinez aka Z now." i said and they screamed again. "wait uhm, im not korean by the way and i am a girl. i hope you guys can still learn to accept and support me as a BTS member now. im sorry if it feels unfair but i promise to take care of our precious boys and i promise to give this family a 100% of my love and everything." i said and Jin oppa and i blew a kiss. the crowd went wild and i blushed. "we hope you guys will learn to love her the same way we've learned to do so. shes really weird, funny, strange at times, beautiful, loving, thoughtful, genuine, sweet and so much more." Yoongi said. "and she is also so filled with talent." Jungkook added. "plus, have we mentioned shes a girl"? J-Hope said and we all laughed. "the hyungs are right! even though she is really weird or strange, we still leanred to love and accept her." Jimin added and he chuckled. UWUUU~ "yah! whats wrong with being weird or strange?" Tae said. "yeaaah! whats wrong with that?" V and i pouted. "nothing my daughter!" Jin said and hugged me. "what about me?" Taehyung said and faked cry. i ran to him and hugged him. later on we formed a line and bowed.
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after that we got off stage and went back stage. we all chatted for awhile then we got into our van and went some place to eat. it was Monday tomorrow and its already 9pm. so the van went to my house and i asked if they wanted to stay awhile. Jimin asked if they can just stay over and i allowed them to, ofcourse with my parents' permission. then we set up blankets and pillows on my bedroom floor and they were in awe in my room. then after a few minutes of us talking awhile, we all fell asleep.
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