Before I Hit The Ground

3

As the wind rushes past me and I free fall it feels like I'm floating. I watch the others as they do tricks with the clients and I turn slowly using my feet and legs like rudders to angle my self and get a shot of each of them. Anything I don't get will be on the video from the second camera.

 I don't know why but it every time I jump I feel nothing, no thrill, and no excitement. In fact, it always feels numbing. 

As the wind tears at my face, I go to snap a photo of Trace and Mr. Johnsen and another memory tears out of a big box in my mind marked ignore forever and never ever open. 

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"Liza, here I got you another drink." He handed me a beer, he had already opened it for me, but I trusted him. 

"Oh, Thank you." I took a sip and ignored the strange flavor, thinking at least it will be feeling something different than the pain I was used to.  

"You know Liza you're really pretty ..." He started but Cody cut him off.

"Dude her Mom just passed away 5 days ago why are you hitting on her right now? Let her grieve. " He gave the man next to me a glare and made him move seats with him. 

 "Thanks, Cody.... I'm - I'm ok I want to have fun tonight." I look down at the beer in my hand and shotgun it, earning an appreciative cheer from the party raging around us.

"At'ta girl Liz, if you need anything I"ll be over there flirting with the blonde with legs for days." He winked and kissed my cheek had to love Cody, he was the only one of the group who knew I was Bi.

"Psh If you dont I will." I said returning the wink. He smiled and ran off to what was an admittedly long legged goddess.

"HEY LIZA COME DANCE WITH US GORGEOUS!" Amber and Natalie called from the dance floor.

"COMING MY BLINDING BEAUTIES!!!!"  I ran over and we began dancing, Natalie spun me around and Amber looked up at me through her lashes and winked, I hoped it meant what I thought it did. We danced until all of a sudden I started to feel woozy.

"Heyyyy.... Amberrr commmee with meee?" she giggled and led me by the hand upstairs to one of the bedrooms of the house.

"I l-like y-you Mber" She smiled brightly and kissed me lightly. Just then a loud knock erupted throughout the room and we jumped apart.

"Am I interrupting something ladies?" There he stood in the door frame, sumg with his discovery. "Hm Amber bet Aunt Kacey would love to know you're kissing some girl."  He's her cousin? My head hurt and I sat down quickly and saw spots. They were still talking I could tell but my eyes felt soooo heavy and my ears were ringing. I see the edges of my vision darken and the man begins walking towards me. 

"God this dress is killer worked on my cousin... works on me." I fought to keep my eyes open, but I couldn't feel my legs  or anything really. His hand was on my thigh, I could see it. It was heading north...

"He-ey n-nno st-stop that." I said shakily. 

"Sorry sweetheart I don't think so... mm fuck this is gonna be fun." He smiled devilishly and turned the lock on the door. " Ya know I wouldn't have had to do this if you would have just had sex with me when I offered the last 6 times."

"But-t I dont-t want-t t-ttoo..." I stuttered out. I couldn't see his left hand anymore, but his right hand was undoing his belt. I try to push him off but he took his belt and secured my hands to the headboard. I released a small whimper and he groaned lowly and sized my throat tightly. 

"OooOooOh Fuck...." He muttered and though I couldn't feel it I could tell my body was moving forward and back in response to him.

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I was still falling fast, the others were spread out below me doing flips and things I was glad the camera on my helmet was recording what I missed during my space out. I could barely breathe and tears flew upwards from my face. I checked my watch we'd been falling for about 5 minutes, we usually get 7 minutes of fall time and 20 floating down from the chutes. But today I felt like I just wanted to fly all the way to the ground, I know if I dont pull the chute I'll die instantly on impact. 

Hard and fast, 

Quick and easy. 

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A/N more details on the traumatic experiences of Liza's past to come as she contemplates her life and its worth, I promise this wont have more than 10 chapters lol. a short story gotta be shot